Just a Plain Song <3
well it happen to me jus a few minutes ago. out of the blue, i wondered to myself why ami so fond of guro,blood and weenie bit of violence. There has always been a dark element in the things tt i like. And tts in almost all fields and its inclusions in various subtleties. Jus see this blogskin. I love this picture on the left. all around my stuff i see blood, death, and even violence. Mos of u readers will not noe cos i keep all these things close to myself. too much details make me look like a perverse psychopath
so i have been analysing for the past few minutes. Its my obsession for gore a reflection of my soul? maybe its a subconcious desire within me that is screaming to break free...wanting to break out...is my heart realli filled with pain,regret and resentment? aye, i think tt is true. who to open up to, tt is also a prob. seen many yabbers...tts y i dun like to talk abt certain stuff. wif no form of release wat shld i do? i have found a convenient medium. welcome to guro and such...yee ha...gore is good...
i also start to think why he hell am i so much into anime...my first reason, to forget abt the world tt i am in. to forget abt my woes and fears and live vicariously thru them. everytime i watch a single episode, i feel more at ease and for tt short moment i am in another world. its not a perfect world. there are stil losses and miseries. but hey at least its not affecting me directly yup?
for so many times i have stopped myself...self-doubt or self-denial? both are equally bad...im a burner of bridges, the proverbial person who came to the door too late and frog within the well all rolled into one.
say tt to me and i will reply...
touche
guess this is close to wat i call a random bout of emo-ness...think im slowly losing the right to call ppl emo...cos after all i may be one after all...messy ramblings...how unsightly...blaaa
holy crap!! have i become emo?????
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