JAB or...just another blog

2008-02-10T04:38:00.000-08:00

Ok...finally done...

I deleted my friendster acc.

Why? Its not like have a use for it anyways. Meh...never got into the habit of adding ppl and writing testies , which also means i also wont be on other networking sites.

Ok...now it will finally stop spamming me emails... ^_^ nice~

Nothing much going on now... Still having 10 more months to go but only 12 days of leave. Dang...Sundays and Mondays are depressing days ever~~The ordeal of yet another week and the activities, filled with people you dun wanna meet, things that u r forced to do, time that is otherwise wasted and feelings of frustration, anger and regret.

If all this is a precursor to the real world, i understand why depression is going up. Not even 21 and im feeling so jaded abt this world. Sometimes knowing too much is a bane. To understand all the paths u take, its consequences and bearings for you, it can be a great torrent of trouble for the mind. Can't go rushing in, can't just throw in the towel and flip a coin. ZzZzZ...Damn.. Life is tough....where is my save point!?!?!

Random rantings yet again!!

For those unforgettable days, i live

2007-12-21T06:59:00.000-08:00

Okok..i think i better update my blog.

If not its like a waste of bandwidth and wateva not on the internet.

Ha...how long has it been since i saw this textbox.

Hmm...thats strange i think i start my last few posts mulling over all this...i think..haha...cos its realli too long le..

Since its been a while..lemme jus recap wat happened to the past few months.

Yup..nothing....heeeeee~~

hey tts the truth ya?

okok...for now...things still going on smoothly for me..nothing really happening to cause me to change much..which bad in a way cos it means im still stuck wif the past? meh...hopefully im overthinking again...

anyway jus saw sumting on central...they changed their anime programming slots for the better~

now they showing 3 diff anime a week at e 2300 timeslot.

guess this makes more sense to expose more ppl to anime..or at least diff genre...

bakuretsu tenshi, azumanga and d grayman..all differing types of anime..

bakuretsu tenshi= eccho overload...me gave up watching after a few episodes..

dgrayman = manga dint interest me enuff to watch the anime..

Azumanga daioh = possibly the best series i have yet to finish watching..lol..HD crashed the last time..Fortune telling by throwing a shoe...^_^

haha...if u all dunno...i have a distaste for those streaming sites..meh...watching such low quality versions of the shows dun give the studios any respect at all. I mean after all they worked so hard only to see their work to a 5cm by 7cm size movie? blaaa...this is becoming a rant...better stop..

I wonder when will they broadcast shows like haruhi and lucky star. but since they start showing azumanga...its a start ya? To convince ppl tt anime doesnt have to be abt fighting, mahou shoujo or some lovelove story..not tt im dissing those kinda shows though..i have my faves in each of those genres...hhaa..

oh well...finally im getting to see some lighr in central's programming...from the beginning where they show inuyasha and 12 kingdoms to azumanga now..haha.. its been a while ya?

now im running out of eng manga to read..time to start buying chi manga i guess...they jus translate them so slowly..too slowly i might say..

and to make it worse...there are not much new VN to read..meh...i better finish those in me collection first..or also...i can replay ever17...ah...the best time ever on my comp..

oh wells..guess its abt time i ended this raving session, for if i continue on, i might really lose all inhibitation and vent it all out..lol..and it wont be a pretty sight..nor would it be understandable..

i think its fine right? to stop thinking so much and worrying abt possibly everything.

Now, all i have to do is to convince myself to do so..

For those unforgettable days, I Live

2007-08-29T06:37:00.000-07:00

Abt 5 months nvr blog le.....so it feels kinda weird to do this...

such a sense of nostalgia....typing rubbish and ranting on the net...

its jus too bad i cant say much due to the place tt im in now...

so tt kinda explain the hiatus....cos im realli hum ji one...later get arrested then how??

anyways...jus wanna say tt i wont be in sg for arnd a month...

not tt most ppl will noe the diff since i dun have a lotta time to play catch up...

so meh...prolly no one is reading this....but i dun realli care...hopefully....got inspiration strike me during this trip.....

suddenly got an urge to write stories all over again...maybe its becos of f/sn or ever17

sighs..and its gonna take a long time b4 i can get my hands on narcissu side 2nd or hourglass of summer

oh well at least i can kill one month waiting time le...

RANDOM: getting a psp realli affects ur reading habits...

so much to say yet i dunno wat to put down...maybe all i need is a person to talk to....

probably, hopefully, just maybe...

2007-03-21T09:10:00.000-07:00

Finally...I blog again~~haha

Just finished my BMT and now on my block leave...same old same old...

Not enuff time to watch anime,drama and manga...

And to add to tt, im playing a new mmog...lol

All i can say is tt the gfx is cute...lol...tts e main reason y i play it...

U can choose to be a bunny cat sheep and other animals...

Its weirdness in jobnames make it so likable...(schoolgirl, librarian, prima donna) lololol

its call trickster btw but i think i wont have time to play le....

Sighs~~And i find my blogskin getting a bit boring but me dun have any inspiration for a new skin...maybe its cos i need to get more pics to edit first??? hmm....maybe i'll do tt next time...

now its time for higurashi no naku koro ni...one of the anime ive been waiting to finish...its disturbing and since i dun feel likeplacing spoilers here....i guess its ....

sore ja,mata ne?

2007-02-10T06:23:00.000-08:00

wooo...finally back from camp...

got a six day field camp so i was stuck on tt stupid island for arnd 2 weeks...

its so bleddy tiring la...

field camp tt is and now i got so many scratches all over my body...

time to lick my wounds and wait for it to heal...today is my bookout and pay day....

HAHAHAHAHA

jus felt my wallet getting thicker...but damn those adult price transport fares...

zzz...maybe i shld go crazy and aim OCS for the money...lol

2006-12-14T08:01:00.000-08:00

previous post is purely fictitious so dun bother to much abt it yup?

prolly gonna jus leave it hanging in the air cos im busy yeah?

so i guess tts it...

im going in ns tmr...

not night safari....but National service

( T _ T )

its jus something tt every (well at least most) male sg youth has to go thru

so its part of the control system put in place.

so all i gonna do is to let them command me~~~

gonna be so much easier tt way

haha...got so many things i wan to say but sadly time isnt realli on my side...

cos of blogger always dc ing on me...and i also got other things to do

im a busy man >_< teeheee

hopefully i will be bak on xmas...

*randomness*

oh yah...and wat do u get when two airheads put their heads together??

u get a hollow sound~~

farewell...adieu...zai jian...bye bye...ja ne~~

2006-12-04T10:19:00.000-08:00

Where am I?

I am enveloped in darkness...

Oh yes, I have still not opened my eyes

Slowly, i peeled my eyelids open.

A great white flash burned my retinas...

It took quite a while for me to get back my normal vision.

When my vision cleared, I could see the drab walls and the empty ceilings above me.

Besides me i could also see an IV drip attached to my skin.

I guess that's it. Somehow I'm in a hospital.

I forced myself to recall what had happened.

Ah yes, i was walking along halfway when suddenly my head was hit with a sudden pain

It was a pain so intense that i was instantly brought to me knees.

The last thing i remembered was me lying on my back, staring straight at the lonely sun that stood alone in the clear sky.

????:

All.... vital .... normal .... he .... lucky...be alive.

My ears could only hear intermittent sounds. Voices seemed blocked , like i was living in a mute and deaf world.

I turned towards where i thought I heard the voice was.

I strained my eyes and saw a man dressed in a white cloak.

He had a imposing figure, showing his superiority in his sacred domain.

Towering over my bed, he continued his routine examination

Doctor:

For the moment all is fine, make sure he doesn't overwork. And I need to speak with you

He gestured to my parents.

Clip...clip...clip...

The sharp sound of his shoes reverberated throughout the room as he stepped out.

Clap.

The door was lightly closed, as if to signify that the outside world was now unreachable for me.

I turned my head around searching for a window.

There was none.

Heh...Guess i got a prison around me.

Straining my ears, i heard cries of despair.

It was a voice all to familiar to me.

Even without them telling, i think i know what has happened to me.

I'm dying.

My life is cut short.

I was deluged with an overwhelming sense of dread.

Seven days in a bed wouldn't even weaken a person this much.

These words keep ringing through my mind...

"There is no hope...
The darkness beckons me
Death is welcoming me
And i enter its arms..."

2006-11-22T21:45:00.000-08:00

meh...wif only one month too slack...im feeling a wee bit down...

so many things to do and yet so little time....

oh well...since i gonna go chalet for the til the weekend...might as well make a post first..lol

other than tt well... i mus say....

WHEN IS GANTZ SECOND PHASE COMING OUT!!?!?!?

2006-11-11T07:26:00.000-08:00

reminder to self....

chem mus piah....

TE

carbonyl

distinguishing test

energetics

ionic equil....

2006-10-23T09:47:00.000-07:00

Shortly after it gets late,
The rain will probably turn into snow.
Silent night, holy night...
You're certainly not coming
It'll be a lonely Christmas Eve
Silent night, holy night...
Desires that are kept deep in my heart
It doesnt seem that they will be granted
Certainly tonight,
I thought i could tell it to you...

2006-10-19T06:21:00.000-07:00

phew....jus gotta compose myself...

haha.....jus watched mechaike's morning musume special~~~

the bakajo one....Truli a LOL moment in front of my comp...

my decision to eat an apple while watching is completely and utterly WRONG!!!!

choked a few times....the apple juice go into my nose once or twice...

haha...its been quite a while since i laughed like tt...it is jus plain nice to watch...

telephone = telepudding~~~ kawaii~~~~

2006-10-15T04:26:00.000-07:00

For the less than 2 years in NYJC...

"Sotsugyou" hito wa atarashii DOA mata hitotsu akete susumu...
"Graduation", a person again opensa new door,and moves on...

Saigo no hi hayaoki o shite,Itsumo no michi o fumishimeteta
It was the last day of school so I trod down the usual path

Semakatta kyoushitsu ni ima, omoide ga afurete iru
In that small classroom now, memories overflow.

Deatta koro no fuan ya kibou,Doko ka natsukashii namida koboreru...
The hopes and fear i had when we met all, somehow tears start to fall...

"Sotsugyou" itsuka kanarazu kuru to,Wakatte ite kedo setsunai ne...
"Graduation" , the day it came, I didnt understand but its painful isn't it?

"Sotsugyou" kitto wasure wa shinai dakara egao de itai yo...
"Graduation" I certainly won't foget it.So i want to smile

Sukoshi zutsu itsumo no koe ga modori nigiyaka ni wa naru kedo
Bit by bit, our voices return to our liveliness

Asu kara wa sore zore no michi susumu koto wa shitte ita
But after today, I know we will move on down our own paths

Tsukue ni tsuketa kizuato nagame,omoide zenbu KABAN ni tsumeta
Gazing at the carvings at my desk, I put all my memories into my bag

"Sotsugyou" itsumo namida ja nakute kore kara hajimaru yume kureru...
"Graduation" It's not always tearful as it starts our dreams

"Sotsugyou" sore wa wakare ja nakute deai no yokan o kureru...
"Graduation" , this isn't goodbye, i know we will meet again...

Itsuka kitto sakura no hana ga kono michi ni saki midareru toki...
Someday, it will be time for the cherry blossoms to bloom on this road...

Hito wa minna mata omoide wo kakaete aruki hajimeru darou...
And peope wil be walking round, carryig their memoriees with them...

"Sotsugyou" sore wa tata hitotsu no mirai no DOA kagi da ne...
"Graduation" It is just one key to the door of our future

Mirai no DOA o akeru yo...
The door of our future will open up

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2006-10-02T05:18:00.000-07:00

Another sucky night to the end of a sucky day, and tomorrow would be more suckier.

As the days past by, I fall deeper into the darkness and watch others having their mundane but yet satisfied lives. I am envious. Joy, such an elusive emotion for me. I've never seem to be able to grasp it in my hand. What is it in this world that makes a person truly happy?? Love, friendship, entertainment or money? Everyone has their own different answer. For some, their answers are much easier to find. i wont say tt i have the shittiest time out here cos i noe ther are prolly ppl in worser conditions. To forget your troubles, thats something obviously very good to have. But who can truly cast our memories away. After all, they are what that make us who we are. My head is crammed up full of crap even after all this while.

Ever heard of the term homunculus? It can be said that it is the little man in your head. Your own subconcious that is unknown to others. Maybe even to yourself. I read a manga of the same title quite a while back. And suddenly i think now. What would my homunculi look like? Would i be like a person who is actually made of sand? Able to shift myself to what my concious mind or the others want. Having no true self as all i do is to mimic and act the shape of something. OR could i be like a little boy within a robot. Where the robot armor symbolises the the shields tt i have rased in order to protect myself and make myself look more "normal" to the rest? It may be messy for those who dint read it but still, its a fresh look to examine yourself.

Self, my identity, may be wat im looking for. I still probably could not proclaim that I am me now because what is I? what is me? Typing vulgarities now to vent my frustration might be a good way to relieve my self of some of the stress i have but it is all futile. Temporary respite has only brought about greater troubles.

Should probably go study now. Be the sand-person and fulfil my role as a student.

Dry, bland and coarse.

2006-09-25T06:14:00.000-07:00

Been getting these weird calls lately, calling me to go work. But they ask a bit too early la, can.t they wait for a few months. One of them just called a few min ago. Talking abt how they lack manpower and then call me go down interview... My skepticism meter goes into an overdose. Maybe its the words they used . What "manager" , "headhunt", "bioscience".

Im like WTH? How can la...It smells too good, where's the catch??? Surely got something hidden one lor. Later at the end is to give out brochures only?? I dunno...Too many grey areas.

So damn right, im ignoring them until im despo for money!!!!

Im prolly gonna abstain from doing surveys in orchard...bleh...

soremata~~

2006-09-22T10:07:00.000-07:00

wooohooo...having a new comp never fails to make me happy~~

at least now i can play some decent games on me comp...haha

stilll getting games is still qte a chore...

another thing...the screen area so...sometimes its a bit hard to find the mouse...lol

bimbotic huh??

but wateva..mus be happy wif wat i have...heeeheee

so i guess its lesser emo stuff on this blog cos i got make myself busy in other stuff....

muahaha

shin persocom, FUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!

2006-09-17T01:34:00.000-07:00

fufufu~~

jus saw nanoha on channel u ...or rather mahou shoujo lyrical nanoha!!

just as what i had expected, shortening/changing the names of animes...maybe next time they show bleach they will call it by its chemical name??

Please watch NaClO on central at 11 pm!! bleh....weirdness

haha...its much of a guilty pleasure when i watch nanoha...cos realli its mostly watching kawaii chars kicking ass!! haha...and it gets better in the sequel!!

not too bad for an anime tts made mostly due to a joke right?

phew...few more days til prelims are over...then can use the new comp liao...ahahahaha...im practicalling drooling over it...but wait...i need games!! lol...oh no??

borrow!! buy!! download!! haha

zi high for a while then better go mug liao...hai~~~faster over leh!!!!

soremata!~~

2006-09-15T07:26:00.000-07:00

Yeps...i have finally finished edited this blogskin. Heeeee...Or rather, i gave up trying to make this box partial opacity while rendering the text at full opacity. Playing with the code doesnt get me eanyway so i gave up!!! Muahahahhaha

I thought of making an Air blogskin quire sometime ago, but i was severely limited in image editing...haha...even til now i also have no adobe to do editing...sian ded...mus borrow liao..hhaha..

Well lemme give u a short intro to this skin. The backgrnd pic is from a wallpaper of Air: Summer Special. Possibly one of the nicest wallapaper i have of Air. I can only think of another tt can rival it. And, the bgm tt u are hearing now is also from Air!! Heee...its a insert song so u can hear it qte frequently in the show. I find this piece of music very soothing. Natsukage or summer nights. Its moody and yet uplifting at the same time. Whenever i hear this piece i feel more relaxed. Oh noes...maybe next time i will jus keep looping this song whenever im online~~~haha

next up, haruhi or rozen maiden or fs/n themed blogskin....til then

soremata

2006-09-13T07:05:00.000-07:00

bleh...this is probably the worst time i've ever had when taking an exam. Firstly, i cant recall the last time i had a truely restful sleep. Heck tt was happening even weeks b4 the exams. Now there always seems to be an nagging ache at the back of my head. Sometimes it spreads to the front too.

Such bothersome things, these headaches are. I wont say im not depressed becos... what for do u try to repress this emotion. Methinks depression is the void of feeling. Everything that u do has no joy nor warmth. Kinda like the curse of the black pearl. Food now taste bleh...plain water seems to be the same as other forms of sugared water. Even now, when im listening to my fave songs, i cant seem to get a trace of a smile on my face. A real smile . Fake smiles are so easy to make. It after all takes like 30 odd muscles to do so. i daresay im one damn excellent maker of them. Jus tt now, i cant even be bothered to do tt.

All i wanna do is to run away from this place and jus stare into into the the sky wif no disruption. Aozora. The blue sky. Or the nightsky that is decorated by the star-spangled delights. Tsk, i had never thought that i would wanna do such a tired and cliched stuff. But maybe it is because i am living a tired cliched life, that i have such a dream..

2006-09-08T09:38:00.000-07:00

Konbanwan~~ random update desu~~~

Something that happen to me that makes me so happy desu~~

Ore wa internet connection is upgraded to 10mbps desu~~

honto no ureshii~~~

max possible dl speed is 2.4 mbps...warai!!

hi speed dl ~` FUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!

*hip thrust*

lol...ok...wat on earth did i just typed for the previous few lines above.

dame desu~~

haha...here ends a completely pointless and irrelevant post....

itterashai~~(correct jap word or not ar??lol)

2006-08-29T00:37:00.000-07:00

Notice

This blog will only resume normal postings after the prelims are over. Any inconvenience caused is deeply regretted

*This is an automated message. There is no need for any replies

2006-08-27T09:10:00.000-07:00

I am making this few video post with the utmost peril of my life. The following content may result in the end of my life. So if you are viewing this, try to keep me alive k?

Im counting on u all.

Please dun kill me!!!

if u dun understand this post...then nvm...lol...

soremata

2006-08-26T09:35:00.000-07:00

Ok...this update is to counter another person's post somewhere else. Think tt person will probably see it so its ok. I just hope not too many ppl will kill me after reading this. LOL

I think u might have seen from now the zu da ge from jay's latest album. Yeah, tt one featuring fei yu qing. I dun realli understand why ppl like it so much? Is it the novelty of having the two people of two distinctively different people working on the same song? I admit i was piqued by what I saw on entertainment 100%. Somehow you never thought this collaboration would ever happen. The last combination as weird as this was Dido and Eminem i think.

That aside, after seeing the MV, i felt nothing. Yup the complete devoidness of emotion which culminates in the fave phrase of a certain american idol judge "so what?". Nothing really struck me in this MV, except for the female lead in the MV looked a bit like jolin in some angles. Anyways, back to the point, it seems manufactured and forced!

I think this collaboration was just a publicity stunt. Just think about it. After all this time dun u think jay's music is getting a bit stale? The only thing getting better is his diction and tts something which is a given! Maybe it was a ploy to make the public notice abt his new album. Cos if he dint would have created so much buzz over this new album. Face it, who wouldnt want to see what will happen if they worked together. But the music that came out was mediocre. I dun really listen to T-pop but really if you told it that was from the most popular and talented
dinger in T-pop, I would say "No shit!!". Frankly i think he's losing his touch.

I predict all opposition to my claims are going to be argument by mindless repetition and circular arguments. At least for the majority of them.

Now its out of my chest. I dint offend too many ppl which i think i already did. Ahahaha.

soremata~~

2006-08-24T08:23:00.000-07:00

ytd night was a online disaster!! cant access any sites for ome reason...but msnm and utorrent still working though...ahaha...more more more!!!

kekekeke...small lee shot himself in da foot with tt "mee siam mai hum" statement...lollerskates!!

too bad he doesnt listen to black eye peas man!! he doesnt noe tt mai hum and my hump sounds essentially the same to singaporeans!! OMGWTHLOLBBQ!!! lame shits...and the talkingcock.com reaction to his speech qte farnie also...they are worried over losing their street-cred cos the govt praise them...maybe its the gahmen plan to shut em up?? divide and conker!! gahmen SOP!!

ok...since im qte bored over here...im gonna make an Idiots guide to resizing youtube videos!!

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1) Firstly find the video u want ( d'uh...)

2) The extract out the code which will look a whole line of html jibberish

3) Notice tt there are two places to change the pixel by pixel area. 9width & height)

4) What to do if u dun noe which one rite? very simple just switch them both!!!
* i dun think u wanna see me putting two codes whose difference is just 12 digits*

5) when u put in the new numbers...be sure it can fit inside ur blog!! tts the whole purpose of resizing anyways. And pls keep the aspect ratio...use some basic maths...

6) dump the html code on ur post...be careful though...u cant see the thing in ur edits cos its set to be embedded...

7) Press publish post and it is done!!

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to show tt i noe wat im talking abt...

haha...piece of cake...this is ZONE performing sotsugyou(graduation) live in some show~~

heee...cos its my current favorite band as of right now!! haha...their bassist is the cutest one ever hahaha...i shall dedicate a post to them in the near future...hahaha

weeee....no proper ending for this post!!!

soremata~~

2006-08-22T06:20:00.000-07:00

here comes another mindless and meaningless update cos i felt like blogging ya??

read something weird on newpaper today lol... haado gei is getting married!!?!?!?

Matrimonial Life. FOOOOOOOO~~~~~

haha..jus nvr thought tt i would read him on local papers...cos hes eerm.. alternative?

actualli he got caught dating by ththe paparazzi qte a while ago so im not realli surprised by this issue. Not too sure whether if he's going to stop his antics. After all, with marriage comes great responsibility(aka trouble, problems, ailments and whatnot)

Its a bit sad for me, for that the things i take an interest are not continuing anymore? ZONE is an example..lol..i onli started listening and liking their music only after they had disbanded( arnd march last year i think) Dun tell me haado gei also gonna be like this man. Im gonna be miserable if there is nothing to cheer me up lors...haha...

Watched another 2 episodes of sekaichu today and needless to say...the demand for tissues had risen dramatically...shrugs..it does happen..if it doesnt u, prolly need some love in your life! They say u only need a moment to fall in love with someone, but it take ages for you to forget it.
sub "someone" with "something" and voila and it explains wat i feel...lol...

haa..i prepared some treatment process after emo shows liao...that is comedies!! densha otoko is hot on the heels after sekaichuu!! maybe snakes on a plane too??lol...so many things to do and yet so little time.

Even though there isn't a day that doesn't break, if you don't wake up, morning doesn't come.
And even if you are awake, the night might never end.

2006-08-21T05:47:00.000-07:00

my right eye is giving me the shits!!!

it feels like its been infected and i keep feeling like closing it. But the problem is tt i never wear contacts for some many days liao!! So wat on earth is going on?? Maybe more sleep will cure this ailment. thats someting i think im deprived of these days...

blaaaaa...bu shuang bu shuang bu shuang!!!

SNAKES ON A PLANE!!!

haha...another note of randomness...looks like tts going to be a realli lame but ok movie...haha...theres so much internet hype over this...still remember all those SOAP stuff on 4chan qte a while ago...too bad the version coming to sg is gonna be the "sanitised" one...haha...i shall go and procure it later

sore ja, mata ne

2006-08-18T08:22:00.000-07:00

You know I actually intended to make this post full of vulgarities and lotsa of pissed-off-ness. But such venting is ultimately pointless. What good does it really do everything we scream and shout in pain? Sure it gets it out of your chest but i find it detructive and disturbing. Not to mention totally unglam. So hell yeah!! !flush to all unhappy memories!! Haaa. Its always easier for me to reason out all tt Im feeling. Possibly cos im a depressing person (mind-set only) so all the bad things tt happen seems almost natural. All hail Murphy's Law: Shit happens.

Tt aside, being a cleric has never that cool since the movie, Equilibrium. Haa...i noe its a chem term and its gonna piss ppl of especially since its so near the crunch. but , lol. Its got one of the most action scene i seen so far. Gunslinging at its best!! Plenty of no-look shooting and all-round shooting. Wat's more impressive is tt the pistol can be put on auto. Haha, only tot tt happen in machine guns. Put in a good measure of katana in action and viola! Gammatron Cleric. Wonder if tt will occur in any game

But diregarding all that action, well the movie also had a decent plot set in an alternative where sense is a sin. No art nor music nor emotions are allowed. The so-called panacea to the world's problem is the void of human emotion. This is something worth thinking abt. Wat are we willing to do to solve all the problems in the world. In tt film it was blamed on the feelings we have. Guilt,fear, anger, pride. If they were absent there would be no more problems so off with them! Bye bye to music and literature. All that remains is a empty shell. Post more abt it next time!! which is prolly after prelims...hahaha

until this whole shit is over.

2006-08-12T09:35:00.000-07:00

To part is such a sweet sorrow...

Quoted from a very famous bard, it is with this feeling that i went away from seeeing today's fireworks.

Maybe not..ahhaha

ACtually not so much so, actually i think i m getting more detached from this world. I honestly think that i feel no joy or any mood of festivity when i see the fireworks. When I look into the sky, i see incandescence. Merely that, and nothing more. Try as i might to get high with the crowd, but i feel even more hollow. It seems that I am jaded even though I'm at such an young age. The funny yet sad and ironic part of life.

Lets cast the depressing side away...haha...this blog is festering with negativity liao...Caught a movie today...See No Evil...But i made that mistake by seeing that particular show. Acting, laughable. Story, zilch. Music mediocre. Gore, excessive. Realism, wanting. But again this is the first movie i saw with so much focus of gore on eyes so yup, it may be the only good out of it. To think of it, i think i once read in a book that having an eye poked is more painful than being kicked in the groin. Whether if that is true or not i have seriously no intention of testing it out. Period. Its just trivia.

Haha..the word trivia makes me a bit depressed...damn me for reading narcissu...lol...its about a gal who gave up having any hope at all as she is very much afraid of wat she feels if wat she hoped for did not happen. As a result she seems so distant and all that she do is to collate trivia in her brain. Its quite sad actually. Very very sad indeed. Shoots, the blog has unofficialli receded back to its depressing mood. i think i need to change the backgrnd of this blog le...haha...lidat then can change the depressing mood.

Hmm...blogger's blog...Im ending this post rite now...

So, until we meet again...

2006-07-31T08:16:00.001-07:00

what mark should i leave on this blog that has been kept clean??

Should it be one of betrayal or of an vigilante spirit? Or should it be about the imcompetent fools that stabbed you in the back through their ignorance? It's really funny sometimes how not knowing things could hurt you so. The phrase "ignorance is bliss" is passe. Now, it is "ignorance is strength"

Not many people have the fortitude to gather all the pent-up emotions and release it into the thin air. Just into the atmosphere and see it fly away harmlessly. Why is it difficult you may ask? Well, it is due to our mortal human's sentimentality. Even though something may hurt us as we grip it it tightly, beneath the thorns of the cacti lies a soft and tender. However we often do not know whther the core had dried up or become infected with blight. What gives then? What do we always blindly rush head-first into such things? Is it our natural learning mechansism? If we had to learn through pain than why aren't we better equipped to withstand pain. Why are our hearts so weak that a single action may tear our souls apart?

As i always felt and belive, there are no happy endings, and we may never ever see the cacti bloom. Why therefore do we persisit in our ways i do not know. Why do we rush into pain i do not know. I only know that the closer i get to the answer, the more questions i get.

i don't expect to be enlightened anytime soon. Its name is just a label to show one's pride over the expectations of the world. What are we actually doing anyways?

The meaning of our existence. Our raison d'etre. Love?? Power?? Money?? Sex?? I think its self-gratification. To what extent i do not know. All I know is that the world is not acting the ideal way in my mind. Its too bad I have no control over it. The power to change people through momentous events...I do not have such capabilities. Then what do I really do then?

I do not know...

The closer u get to the light...the larger your shadow becomes...

2006-07-25T17:02:00.000-07:00

after finishing the whole series, i would at least shed 0.1 litre of tears...not like the whole one litre in the show but i suppose if i watch it ten times..hmmm...

as with always, im gonna give my $0.02 on this show. I watched this show with qte a big expectation and im glad to say tt it lived up to it. The first episode was already depressing and its good to see tt it jumps straight into the story and not giving Aya(main char) those totally "happy days" treatment. As the story goes on, u could see the gradual frailty of her body whether is it through her decreasing automotive skills...This show features a lot of hope and always never fail to remind me to not to give up even if the situations does not realli seem nice...

ok...theres a lot of cliched stuff tts supposed to come up frm my mouth but im too lazy to type it all out cos it is also useless...haha...its just an experience that u have to see it with ur very own eyes..just make sure theres a box of tissues nearby, it was severely lackig when i watched the show...would i watch t again??...i prolly would if u had the time...haha..but i would rather watch a new series.

from spinocerebellar degeneration to leukemia...haha...guess thats the next series tt im gonna see...sekai no chuushin de, ai wo sakebu...

my cries for you just echoes from the walls of my heart...can anyone tell me when my voice will reach you?

haha...im not emo ing...jus need a place to "park" all my literal sense on this page...lol...someday i shld jus write a sappy story here...and actualli do it...not jus talk cock all the time here...hahaah

soremata~~

2006-07-22T06:16:00.000-07:00

Ok...i am stopping 1 litre of tears for a while...after watching the first half of the series ...my eyes kinda hurt from all the ( T _ T )

haha...so maybe later i will watch...cos i still feel tt such shows must be watched at night to have a greater ambience. All those vehicular traffic at my house woulda weaken the feel of the show...

so later i guess~~

haha...jus now played/read through my visual novels. Polyphonica's language was really cheem. I mean who uses words like matriculate, puissant and raiment anyways

nevertheless it was qte a good read, even though i needa use a dictionary frm time to time...lol...i believe tts a first in visual novels.

flood of tears was an unexpected surprise...went through the hina route but then not enuff time to see all the outcomes...oh wells...i guess i still have next time..haha

such good times...reading all these things on me comp...why isnt there anymore of visual novels...dun tell me i realli gotta learn jap to read more visual novels...tts realli frustrating cos aarrghh...mus learn another language...somemore kanji is hard to learn...grrr...well i can stay and hope and pray...

soremata~~

2006-07-20T07:56:00.000-07:00

all i got out from chem remedial lect is tt we have a realli *itchy chem teacher now...

to our dearest teacher, pls try not to be so racist next time and address ppl by their race. This lack of propriety is most appalling especially since it is after all inter-racial harmony week.

speaking of tt, wat happen to its celebration?

i think most of the skool population are not able to experience this occasion( imi havent even used the word enjoyed) All we got is a shift in timetables and a holiday which was actualli, qte a few months old.

WTH is this!!we jus mumbled some words one assembly and then, its like the whole event was wiped from our memory. I think i saw a few surprised faces today when students saw their own kind wearing ethnic costumes. What a successful event. We have to give thanks to those who are in charge.

happy things put aside, there's gonna be a pasar malam close to my house! oh , the small wondrous miracles of life. it means tt i dun have to put up with crappy food. haha. cant wait to eat all the good stuff. hey i aint greedy. its jus one of the most primeval intincts of man, eating charred meat. speaking of which, its been a loooooong time since i eaten steak. a fillet mignon will do just fine for me after such a long break from steak. i think my keyboard is getting wet with my saliva...lol

tmr is my free day....and i plan to complete 1 litre of love in tt timeframe!!

from the screenshots so far, all i can see is tt the female lead is cute...tts definitely a plus for any shows...haha...dun think i can start today...cos i noe its gonna be addictive...dun wanna be like a zombie tmr...such a long day for me...kekekeke

i flew to the moon in search for you,
only to see your footprints.

i scoured the icy tundras,
only to hear your foot-steps

i delved into the deepest caverns,
only to sniff your lingering scent.

and when i finally found you
you said you had lost memory of me

issit me or issit a wee bit too emo? haha...but, whatever *flicks hair*

sometimes ships continue to hide in the harbor even after the calm of the storm,

soremata~~

2006-07-13T07:48:00.000-07:00

The Problem of Apathy : My 2 cents

Apathy is something is something commonly used to describe the young Sgians. If you do not what tt word means, google is your fren.

What i fear for our country is tt the youth are getting detached from the real fiscal world we are in. There seems to be a clear separation between national/international events and our daily personal lives. It doesn't take a genius to recognise the flaws of this characteristic. It may be true tt it may not affect us now directly, but if we dun look out for our own future, who would? Enough molly-coddling already. I believe that we need to experience the tough knocks in life for us to become even stronger. As I always felt, if life was easy-going and all smooth-sailing, it wouldnt as be as exciting ya? If I have to go through my life without experiencing any ups-and-downs, i would prolly pull my own plug.

I think an ideal society is one whose even the most odinary members are able to make a significant difference to it. For it to happen, apathy must be eradicated. But i guess this would be too good to be true. Lets all just watch the house burn down while we are trapped in it

sore ja, mata ne

2006-07-07T08:06:00.000-07:00

Everything seems to go downhill after the elections.

Firstly, the taxi fares increased. Is effect is snowballing. Now like 3 major taxi companies raised their prices liao lor... Oil prices are not a good reason to raise price as tt cost is taken by the cab-drivers. And this increase is gonna hit their wallets. The more $$$ per distance travelled is still ok. Tt alone shlda covered the fuel prices. But the extra 1 dollar at peak hour really pisses me off. Now we *have* to pay 2 dollars extra at peak hours. I find this kinda price is absurd. Are they trying to rip us off? It also doesnt help tt they made the peak hour earlier by 30 minutes. Lidat is like to earn the money of ppl who are unexpectedly gonna be late. If ur late, u wont prolly have much choice but to take a cab. Those manipulative taxi companies...trying to earn more money huh?? It might be little but from now on, im gonna boycott taxis.

Next is the appalling lack of journalistic freedom. Not sure if many ppl noe abt this but a mr brown's column at Today has been suspended. Why because of inappropriate sarcasm. Its just light suaning only la!! If there is a truly neutral newspaper in Singapore, it would prolly fold in a week cos of the lawsuits it kena.

The thing tt pisses me off the most = crazy bullshit frm the govt rep from MICA =

"It is not the role of journalists or newspapers in Singapore to champion issues, or campaign for or against the Government"

Fun fact: mica is also an component of granite and undergoes hydrolysis to form kaolin

Then for what use is the press for, parroting the government, social control over the people or overburdening the puny minds of citizens wif pointless trivia?? Way to go for a first world citizenry. Our minds being engineered by the govt. And the statement above is flawed. Try reading the papers and you will understand. And the partin shot of the govt rep is downright amusing. Calling him to come out from his online persona. Hello?? I think he has his personal pics and details on his blogs la... ANd amazing lack of research. How much are we paying them again? Just peanuts right?( or more than tt?)

Downright depressing. Im gonna earn a lot of money and get a "get out of jail free" card next time. Changing the way things are now is gonna be extremely difficult. Close to impossible.

No mood to blog abt normal life le. Always lidat after reflecting on our first world government

sore ja, mata ne

2006-07-05T07:39:00.000-07:00

Ooooh yes!!! It's the durian seaso now. Now I can enjoy holding my breath whenever I pass through those pesky fruit stores. The nausea-inducing aroma is simply cannot be tolerated by me. Durians are the best!! It makes my lungs stronger!!(cause i have to hold my breath whenever im near it.)

Not tt i am being a wuss abt it...i had taken a few down my throats not by choice but rather as a show a faked appreciation for tt truly gourdawful-fruit. Its kinda a wonder i havent burned my throat doing so.

tmr is my last paper. physics paper 1&2. i have as much hope as passing as a blind man in a driving test...

oh well, i mus not be dismayed...i must think of the things i can do in those short days of freedom...

in no particular order

1) Play/read finish Fate/Stay Night's demo
2) Watch Kanon 2006's preview
3) Complete or rewatch Saikano
4) Eat a pint of Haagen Dazs (one tub is one serving)
5) Finish a bag of ruffles
6) Get a complete set of the rozen maiden mini dolls!!
7) Think whether shld i spent 50 bucks on FS/N figurines
8) Source for karekano
9) Watch Honey and Clover
10) Find a new weekly anime to dl and watch
11) Read all available translations of SHnY novels

great...do i even have enuff time and money for all this??lol

10) is because SHnY jus finished its tv run. Kyoto Animation did a wonderful job in this show. The EP dance, and ENOZ's performance was the best. Think so far, they are the best in game -to-anime and novels-to-anime cross-overs...and they are the studio animating Kanon's remake...cant wait...even though i jus watched the 2002 version(a bit short for remake no?)

now if onli there is a planetarian OVA...and there are more translated kinetic novels to read through...maybe even manga i hope...lol

great...looks like im already an geek liao...but who cares...lol...

wait a sec!! ...i wanna show u all an incredible MV i seen on youtube so far...so nice tt it made me modify my blogskin...haha...no more bgm for now...(argh..html error...caant embed)

*SPOILER START*dun read until u see finish the mv

the words the guy said roughly translate to

There's a girl that i had once loved...
Even though im not with her now,
Im still in love with her

yes we can all cry now...hahah

*SPOILER END*

sore ja, mata nae~~

2006-07-02T21:25:00.000-07:00

wooo....watched almost all the matches in the quarter finals...hahaha...the worldcup fever just keeps on getting hotter and my results et even more shittier...lol

thr argentina-germany match shows tt how impt home support is in world cup tournament...obviously argentina was the better team but the drive and guts of the germans kept them in methinks...and the poor argentine keeper got injured...so all 3 subs used and canno send in messi to kill off the germans....sad sad sad

italy and ukraine match was the onli match i watched halfway...cos its so obvious tt italia was going thru...first half dominance by itali made the match qte predictable...anyways its near impossible to have a get a goal against italy oince ur a goal down...

the inglessa-portugal match ....i missed the opening few minutes cos i was out....hahaha....fun fun fun...england went out as expected...kinda a miracle they managed to hold on til the PKs...after the match see so many english faces crying...oh well...at least they have found out tt they are more effective w/o beckham...good news for us is tt beckham has stepped down as captain...thy may be hope for england in the next euro tournament...=)

france and brazil...who would have thought tt france will prevail and the bald-headed maestro
would be back in business...zidane whoooped the brazilian defence ass many times over and over...onli on 1 or two occasions did he screw up controlling the ball...lets hope he can continue in this rich vein of form...

dun think i can watch the semis cos its too late and in between exams...sob sob...

thoughts on because im a girl mv...is tt transplant process even legal??

sore ja, mata ne

2006-06-30T05:05:00.000-07:00

woooo~~a mini-break for ny students now...haha...next week got those pesky bloodsuckers and brain-cell-zappers called exams.....grrr...at least its finishing le...

i declare today a slacking day!!!haha...so nice to lounge around doing nothing...watched finished kanon today...nearing the end of the show was depressing...so mani ppl start to were gone...ughuu...well at leasy i still have the movie to pei me for a while...lol...

today also mark another end in shows for me...tt blue cactus show on channel 8 finished liao~haha...i feel that its one of the better channel 8 thus far...kudos to the scriptwriter who dint give in to a cliched ending....but it is a bit corny sia...lol..its actualli a not bad show if u dun care too much abt the details... qte a few production mistakes and impossibilities in there...(painting a cactus ble??wouldnt tt kill it??)

at least its not tt kinda family saga-esque formula tt channel 8 keep repeating... i mean who will rmb a shit about those shows...maybe jus their titles anyway...so i hope channel 8 will keep on making shows wif a fresher outlook...

sore ja, mata ne

2006-06-24T07:57:00.000-07:00

oh boy...think tt there is something wrong with my bowel systems...keep on feeling like shittin....and all the prunes wont help....crap....in between exams somemore.....hai~~

i have decided....tt i shall consider going on a detox after mid year!!

mus cleanse my body system liao....haha....like reformat my body...to bad cannot reformat my mind..lol...full of clutter and nonsense stuff...hahaa...

blaaaa....now canno watch the world cup matches animore le....oh well...at least the final is after the mid year...tts something to be happy abt i guess.

hai~~~~~~y maths and science so hard to mug for sia.....ZZZZZ

gimme a chronosphre...lemme go back in time and killl all those chemists, physicist and mathematicians!!!or i could try to prove that the statement 1+1=2 is false...
haahha

hai~~all wishful thinking...but hey without our own imagination and hopes...this world is gonna be a more dreadful place to live in...

yup yup...in my imagination...somehow things are more bleak and desperate...maybe tts how i console myself?? by diverting all those negative energy away from myself...hmmm...this sounds a bit like feng shui...keeping the positive qi in and directing the bad qi out...haha

zi hai...zi sian...zi shuang...zi emo...tts the gamut of emotions im runing through over here...

oh wells...at times like this i remind myself with this one quote: be thankful that u are suffering, if you are not, u r most probably dead....

oooo..depressing quotes...somehow this are the things that make me able to stand all the shit things in my life...i guess by now....everyone has gaze out of their window and wonder how it feels to fall freely down....or how much a slit on ur skin would truly hurt...i guess in sg u cant realli see ppl putting a gun in between their teeth i guess...

oh freaking helll....can someone prs the self destruct button on this earth??

you have my many thanks....make it preferbly quick and painles...thank you very much

soremata~~
if i seem cranky,its becos i am..jaja

2006-06-23T02:02:00.000-07:00

lol...first paper for mid yers today...its geepee peewan and peetoo...

no probs i guess, but lotsa wasted knowledge in me head...the topic which i picked conciously was not tested whereas the topic i picked unconciously miraculously is tested!!!

issit a coincidence tt th topic tt i unconciously studied for is religion??

naaa....im kinda on the other fence on this...lol...but this time not tt one-sided anymore le...cos i factor in fools who will nvr discard their beliefs come what may

the spread of question is qte tough but shld be passable...lol...i have trust in myself....compre kinda screwy though...most pro screw up the aq....haha...they ask what the got has done to solve the prob....i say tt they are the cause of the problem....oh mans....hope i get some points for creativity.....hehehehehe

and i cant believe that there are people in this world who use everyready batteries for cameras...i guess common sense is not tt common after all.....

an assist on my way back home....

soremata
ps. i got a few soft toys to give away from the east coast carnival...who wan jus say...lol

2006-06-20T23:56:00.000-07:00

To emo is to be true to one's self. Thats what i think to myself.

So, i went forward to make myself emo again, with my favorite medium - anime.

Plot Outline by yours truly:

In the not too distant future, Man has expanded to neghbouring Mars. But Mars settlement has been destroyed by an alien force called Tarsians. Using technology from the Tarsians, we are now able of inter-galactic forces and the UN space navy send forth a fleet to seek vengeance...

This story follows two friends who are separated. She was chosen to pilot a mecha in the war and is now travelling to another galaxy. While he remains on Earth living a mundane life, communicating with her only through email msgs. The exchange of mails first take days, then months then years...Are the two of them going to be separated by fate? Or will the two of them be able to overcome it??

comments:

doubt many ppl will noe this show anyway, but voices of a distant star is something which i will rmb in the years to come, in the short span of approx 25 minutes, the director has managed to draw us into the world he created. This sapping story of separation, under the guise of a sci-fi setting is able to make u empathise wif the characters.

this story would also have a special meaning for lonely ppl or are involved in a long distance relationship...

dialouge used in this short feature is perfectly executed. Just enough was used to accentuate the entire storyline...Every silence, every pause, every word has its own meaning for being there. I feel that this show has lots more potential...maybe into a one and a half hour movie...a series would be far too draggy and i feel a movie is the enuff length for this animation. But i doubt this will happen....haha...

thinking abt this show makes me emo again...hai~~guess tts a part of me now...

soremata~~

2006-06-19T06:07:00.000-07:00

hello hello hello~~~random update desu!!!

haha...now got nothing so me very bored...so i go blogging~~haaha

me watch silent hill last week...alone...hahaa...dun wanna waste money to watch cars so i pang seh my ogm s...i dunno but seeeing from the shots, i dun think i gonna enjoy it...haha...

btw...some parts of silent hill suddenly remind me of berserk...got a few the medieval fantasy type monsters there...realli good scenes in the movie...lol...one of them even got a weapon tt reminds me of shi kai zangetsu...lol...if got hollow-ichigo they will alll die!!! ahaha....the climax of the show gotta be when tt freaky gal pop out...its like non-hentai tentacles/barbed attk replaced wif a mild amt of gore....dancing in a rain of blood...freaky but cool~~zombie nurses...lol

playing peekaboo wif a goth loli

she gets more and more nice to look at...esp at the end...that bloodthirsty,raging

the ending kinda stumped me though....spoiler alert!!

im guessing tt the gothic loli(ie the symbol of burned gal's hatred) is somehow assimilated into Sharon(the innocent little gal) who open her eyes when her momma tells her not to, breaking one of the rules of survival in horror films...as the burnt gal's (under gothic loli curse) hatred is centred towards Silent Hill...so her gothic-loli curse onli affects Silent Hill...thus at the end, when
sharon is under the gothic loli curse...wait a minute...she has no specific hatred towards anyone
does she....tt means tt the curse iis then spread through world tt is known to her...im assuming tt the gothic-loli curse only affects where the host dislikes and tt cursed area always has to be present....

hmm...still got so many points of contention...why do those monsters come out onli at night?
im guessing tt since tt gal was burnt...so there is a reluctance...a animosity to light...but tt doesnt makes sense cos the place when the burnt gal and goth loli were in was freaking bright (whole screen white...onli silhouette visible)...so the onli conclusion i can say is....plot device to save roses's ass...hahah

all tt and i nvr played silent hill b4...prolly jus 4 30 mins b4 i got bored of running arnd trying to find my way...

NO SHIT!! its originally rated R under the MPAA...seven minutes of footage gone...wat did i miss??/

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~

now shld i go back to my roots??

soremata~~

2006-06-14T08:25:00.000-07:00

Warning this is a picture-intensive post.Dun keep clicking refresh( i doubt u all noe F5 does the same thing)

whooosh...wat a day... had such a day going out wif the peeps from s9...hahaha...eh...i dun feel like listing who was there cos i jus simply dun feel like doing it~~eheehehe

my day dint start tt well...lol...was too early...at the meeting place 15 min b4 time....then i received the dreaded "we r all gonna be late" msg from the emo-tripper

diaos...one of the rare time i was early and how dare they to be late ...Preposterous,Unbelievable... such nanyatte-ness for me~~ but then luckily theres a arcade nearby...lol...and the para para machine there is 50 cent per play!! bird!! hear tt???lol...

sho...after tt they came in pairs...2 pairs of latecomers...gggrrrrr...lol...lotsa ribbing regarding one pair...hehehehehehe...(i love keeping the suspense) when they eat Mc...wat was i doing?? omg i have stm...shat...kudos to special person who completely forgot to remind me to bring the coupons for the carnival later...shows tt common sense is not common after all and it differs from ppl to ppl...not tt it realli matters anyway..haha

the two hour cycling also had a terrijible start...the basket i took was too big...and when me put me bag in it....it was in direct contact wif da front wheel....can anyone say " wholly sheet"?? wif such an amt of lactic acid accumulated in me legs....it was qte shiong to continue...haha...yesh im blur and it took me some time wat the hell was wrong...oh yah...saw baka-kannojo there...not kinda a surprise cos emo-tripper told me she gona be there..lol..guess jus tt...hahha

took some lame pics along the way...lol...but all on erasmus camera...and i too lazy to take out my v3i to take pics...1.2+ megapix camera is kinda bad...lol...post some pics next time...some a bit pai sei too but wth...lol...

me hoping i dun fall down into the water..

me realising tt i dint put enuff wax

showing how gals shld actualli pose...hhaa

another pose

after all shizzat...we finalli went to the much awaited carnival...but before tt...we had to walk for more than 20min to get to tt place..not too good if ur legs were like jelly..lol..the amplitude of the butcher's voice is kinda scary...at time i worry tt ppl will go and hoot her...of cos with me the faithful fren at her side, i would gladly let them have their way~~haha...

went to the place realised tt they were giving free coupons...oh-em-gee.. being a stereotypical sg' ian...im damn happy abt tt cos its free stuff...lol...but later the queues*shudder*
made me re think...long queues are bad but free prizes are mighty cool too....also took some pics to eradicate boredom...

from me face..u can see tt im not tt happi wif the crowd..hehe

me doing a harry ord( from Turn A Gundam) impersonation

harry ord

won qte alot stuff...and got a realli dirty slipper at the end...hahaha.. show ya later..

after tt we go see the fireworks and got one of the most amazing experience in my life...sure it isnt on the large scale like in the ndp...but have u ever stood jus below a fireworks perfomance wif the closest exploding thingy breaking up a large incandesence jus roughly 7 metres above u?
i can still rmb the shock of hearing the lighting of the fireworks and the explosions in the skies...the scene of pseudo-panic when we realised tt incandescent material were raining on tt crowd tt got unfortunately too close?? wat a beauty she is~ quoting steve irwin...hahaha...later on we saw a fire juggler/breather perfomance....qte cool...

for some unknown reasons...we went to suntec for dinner....(prolly the same reason why dwarves want to have a bag of gold in fantasy stories; jus for te sake of it)...finding the food court...we r all qte pro in tt area..haha..for diff reasons i guess..lol..me is cos and me cravings for carl's jr..ahahaha

after tt had a torrid time at carrefour...bloody fook-up at the cashier counter..it doesnt reali help tt the person there is a idiot...realli., not tt i am making personal attacks the the mistake they made borders stupidity in its most primal and basic form..

got a surprise for me sis....buying a cleo mag for her....geee...tts very nice of u...hahaha...jkjk..

things dragged on and went a wee bit late...haha...oh wth...as long as i have fun can le...then i took a pic of my haul today....

but my sis leg was in the way...sure...accidents do happen *rolls eyes*

after tt managed to get a another pic of em all

and another one which looked the cutest of em all...lol

whoo tmr still have og outing....hope me legs can take it..

edited wif adding pics...hahaha

sore mata
*means until we meet again

2006-06-13T18:27:00.000-07:00

hai~~ updated a bunch of stuff ytd but forget to post it...lol...forgetful me huh??sighs...guess tt jus too bad ba...

hmmm...video quality on youtube suxs man!! i rather stick to dl ing fansubbed anime anytime...at least some form of quality is guaranteed...hmm...maybe i shld watch certain anime on youtube...lousy ones tt is...like bleach and naruto...lol...

*an hour or two later*

jus watched the first few episode of tide line blue...not bad sia..lol...but it kinda a waste to watch on youtube due to its video quality...oh wells...at least its fast...

haha...

soremata

2006-06-09T09:14:00.000-07:00

sighz...world cup opening match and and spirited away both showing now...kinda hard to choose ya?? after all it "is" the world cup...lol...on the other hand...the other is miyazaki's masterpiece (studio ghibli still got grave of the fireflies so cannot consider tt as its masterpiece)...

baaa...i decided..i gonna read manga..lol...yes yes...totally against the run of thought..but wth...firstly i cant see spirited away in jap audio so yep....that pretty much made up my mind..

*watched for 30 mins...kinda surprising to see how childish chihiro is in the beginning...i knew she was a bit but then...it made me realise how little i appreciated all the nitty gritty details in the movie....note to self...re-watch sometime again...so far i seen it twice...little for a movie of this calibre...soon~~~

and tt world cup match..15 min 2-1 liao...sians...exciting but then...not veri good play huh??oh wells...now wat to read...nana,yakitate,freesia or leviathan??

soremata~~

2006-06-08T00:59:00.000-07:00

LOL...the skool is trying to screw for the past 2 days i dint go to skool!! but i have official reasons...just tt it slipped out of my mind to tell them? ooops on my part...haha...now they wan us to write down the time when we sign out...mehhh.... u cant keep resourceful slackers off lidat ya??and not tt i am implying i am one but jus my $0.02...

haha...been so long since i blog le...i cant realli describe my blogging patterns...sporadic? haha...thats not tt helpful in describing a pattern i guess.

thinking of which...i think the skool library comps could deal with a lot of improvement...firstly they lack a dvd-drive...well now it is almost the second fave format (for me...at least...thumb drives are stil #1) for data storage. ditto to cd-roms cause its storage space is too pathetic...700 mb is not a lot for data transfers...dvd ftw!!....secondly...its those bloody mice(plural of mouse i guess) going optical is WOOOOT!!eleven1!!1one!! but wats theuse if u dun have a proper surface??think they did think abt it last time cos they used mousepads but seriously, how long can it last? even a personal mousepad is easily misplaced/damaged/torn/thrown/eaten what good use if it is in public use, its life span would be as a good as a chicken in avian-flu sg!! so my suggestion is that they at least put a permanent mousepad through sticking some non-reflective material on it...yes the the table is lacquered so it reflects a bit of light....too muh explaining is going to be the death of me..at the same time...they might as well change the comp tables cos there is a 120% chance of getting a comp table wif a faulty keyboard/drawer thingy...

prolly the best way is to revamp the whole library...the whole environment is bit staid...very dead, boring and a general muggerific feel...but such loftydreams are never reliased in my time so spread my view abt the library yup?

ps: the books selection is bleh...so far...so bad...

ha~~think i come up wif sumting better to blog....instead on ranting on how i hate this place..haha

we all live in a house on fire; no fire department to call; no way out, just the upstairs window to look out of while the fire burns the house down, with us trapped inside...

soremata~~

2006-05-31T07:47:00.000-07:00

Guess certain things just keeps on coming after a hiatus...haha.

Finally, my blogskin is complete!! (cue:fireworks and party-poppers)
Taken alot of time to complete this cos finding all the media is a hard...
If you can find this song...u r godly!!took me so many days jus to do tt...

Reading Planetarian was probably the best media ive seen this year...many thanks to Key for producing this masterpiece and the ppl at insani.org for making the translation patch. I realli feeeel like plying this when it rains~~ahaha...

Im posting now cos i'll be chionging Kanon soon. During chionging i'll forgt abt averything else one...lol. guess tts something tt will never change.heeee

ja ne~~

2006-05-30T09:42:00.001-07:00

After probably several eons, i am finally posing again!!

For all of who are worried abt my absence. Dun worry, im not ded yet. Haha
I have most probably taken procrastination into an art, as i wanted only to post on a new blogskin,days became weeks and it becomes what u all can see for the past few weeks. Haha.

Let's tok abt this skin! Lol. I dun like just taking skins from www.blogskins.com, so no matter what i choose, i will modify it by a lot. Heeee. The base for this skin is actuallli a FFX-yuna but i manage to do a decent conversion. ^ ___ ^. But still i still got lots more to learn. Bloody html code is so hard to understand at times. ( i still cant upload mp3s ...its kinda hard cos i need someplace to host it!!trust me....its not tt simple...)I can only understand the codes i see...but i cant make one up by myself!! gotta give those skin-makers props for doing a job which most of us take for granted. On behalf of those ignorant pigs out there, I thank u all!

Back to the skin!! Haha...Planetarian was one of the best of the kinetic novels i read for a while. Of cos i havent read KGNE,air,kanon and shuffle but still, ive read qte a lot. Haha. Its charecterisation and build up to the climax of the finale was awesome. The ending make this what it is. A truly wonderful story. Now, all that i want to do is to read it again on a rainy day.makes the atmosphere even sadder. it has a link...u'll noe if ya read it.

Now, i getting so many hits of ideas for stories...prolly come up wif a fanfic for Narcissu.(another vissual novel) not a direct one but jus someone who happen in the same universe but qte unrelated to ther story. I wan some linguistic freedom ya? Hahaha...hope ppl wun luff at it...lol...

oh man, editing blogskin makes u damn weary...dun think i got enuff stamina to go blog-hopping...and i still have to change the profile....wooot *sarcasm* <--for ppl who are wols

time to grab some shut-eye

oyasumi-nesai~~
(@ glors: correct me if im wrong...lol)

2006-05-30T09:42:00.000-07:00

After probably several eons, i am finally posing again!!

For all of who are worried abt my absence. Dun worry, im not ded yet. Haha
I have most probably taken procrastination into an art, as i wanted only to post on a new blogskin,days became weeks and it becomes what u all can see for the past few weeks. Haha.

Let's tok abt this skin! Lol. I dun like just taking skins from www.blogskins.com, so no matter what i choose, i will modify it by a lot. Heeee. The base for this skin is actuallli a FFX-yuna but i manage to do a decent conversion. ^ ___ ^. But still i still got lots more to learn. Bloody html code is so hard to understand at times. ( i still cant upload mp3s ...its kinda hard cos i need someplace to host it!!trust me....its not tt simple...)I can only understand the codes i see...but i cant make one up by myself!! gotta give those skin-makers props for doing a job which most of us take for granted. On behalf of those ignorant pigs out there, I thank u all!

Back to the skin!! Haha...Planetarian was one of the best of the kinetic novels i read for a while. Of cos i havent read KGNE,air,kanon and shuffle but still, ive read qte a lot. Haha. Its charecterisation and build up to the climax of the finale was awesome. The ending make this what it is. A truly wonderful story. Now, all that i want to do is to read it again on a rainy day.makes the atmosphere even sadder. it has a link...u'll noe if ya read it.

Now, i getting so many hits of ideas for stories...prolly come up wif a fanfic for Narcissu.(another vissual novel) not a direct one but jus someone who happen in the same universe but qte unrelated to ther story. I wan some linguistic freedom ya? Hahaha...hope ppl wun luff at it...lol...

oh man, editing blogskin makes u damn weary...dun think i got enuff stamina to go blog-hopping...

time to grab some shut-eye

oyasumi-nesai~~
(@ glors: correct me if im wrong...lol)

2006-05-11T09:56:00.000-07:00

weeeeee...long weekend came by....and passed away...y cant days like this be longer rite??makes me kinda flustered...i dun wanna go skool....lol...i wanna slack slack slack!!!hahah

sat went to batam...family gathering of sorts....one day tour so kinda limited ya?ahha...my family not tt rich k? woke up early on a saturday morning perfect for sleeping(actually all saturdays are lidat)...went to harborfront there to take to ferry to batam...oh yes we are flying to batam...

long wait...trip would have bored me to hell w/o my storybook...when we got there...more waiting at the customs...guess this is the part i hate abt travelling huh?

not much to see in batam frm wat i gather...scenery-wise...during the short half day tour, i saw shanty-towns, logged area...basically scarred earth...it also doesnt gelp much that the tour guide is a noob...no disrespect...but she also said tt herself...haha...

lunch there was nothing short of abysmal dissappointment...shudders...money wasted...

at least i could go shopping on tt day....ahaha...went on a mini-spree tt day...but still spent less than SGD$100 ...hmmm...i shlda bought tt pair of AA sneakers...lol...its basically plain white with random text emblazoned upon it...so cool!! ahaha...and i love my new bag...hehehe...

but all the joy is not to be...cos halfway still got take care of my little cousin...dunno whther shld i be happi or sad tt i have to look after him for tt short while...cos hes hyperactive!!and hes too young for me to comprehend him!! so there i was...chasing after him in the shopping centre not knowing wat he wants...omg...im realli bad wif little kids...so be warned yup? keep all toddlers away from me...hmmm...somehow i rmbed someone from my class...lol...

ps: saw a realli chio gal there..think shes frm sg too..haha..keep on beoh-ing her..aha...but now i cant realli recall her face now...jus rmb tt shes hot...my oasis in the unbearable desert there...lol..shlda taken a pic for remembrance...(issit me or do i sound like a pycho now?) probability of 0 for me seeing her again i thinks...sob sob...

one of the happiest event on tt day is tt....i finally got to eat A&W ice-cream waffle again!!!! SUGOI!!! OIISHII!! tt familiar feeling and nostalgia flowing down my oesaphagus...man...i feel like going there to eat it again...LOL...but the waffle's butter flavor too strong le...tts the onli flaw i think...haha...

tmr got maths test and im on my comp trying to work things out!lol...not having admininstrators privelege on a comp is a pure PITA...took so long to settle stuff...all i need now is to convert an ogg file to mp3 format...then i think i can go change my blogskin le...haha...all is set except for this point...sob sob....guess i need another weekend for this...ehhe...

few more days to a planetarian blogskin i guess...haaa~i better go zzz soon man...maths test in arnd 7 hours? AARRGGHH~~~and i still wanna complete the kintic novels tt i jus dl ed...
guess sleep shld be more impt now....

ja ne~~

2006-05-08T07:38:00.000-07:00

wheee....went iceskating on sun...ahha...skills definitely gotten rusty....spent the beginning rmbering how to ice skate...haaa...

hai~~tt day too crowded...and the scenery there not nice sia...lol...ahhaaaha...so sad...made me go home wif a headache...lol...and i saw someone who looked like a ghost there...the fatal frame kinda type...if she wore red contacts...lol...she would scare the shot out of somebody....ahahaha...

today in skool...saw a few of me classmate wif the minitoons (voodoo??) dolls...my my....issit a sign of commercialism or wat?? treating such an sensitive object as a plaything...but again...dun think they care...lol...mindless sheep of the capitalistic forces in the market economy...i'd prolly make my own one if i really wanted a voodoo rope doll...dun say tt its gona be ugly cos...the internet teaches me lotsa thing...like how to curse ppl wif a strand of their hair and a voodoo doll...haha....im a danger to the society in the future...lol...

this fri hols again!! 2b happi or b sad...im glad me got a long hols....but why on fri??? my shortest skool day?? hai~~sians...mus call ppl go out on tt day...if not die of boredom/studying le...

I hereby sentence myself to perpetual boredom due to studying...lol

ja ne~~

2006-05-04T07:22:00.000-07:00

tis blogskin is starting to get boring...lol..

but stil gotta wait b4 i do any editing...cos i stil sourcing for a nice bgm(got one le...but damn hard to find in mp3 format...haha)

lalala...dint do gp....cos its too late and i wanna sleep early...lol...

hmm...it almost looks like old man goh is contesting in potong pasir...lol...(channel8 news now)

now all we need is to burn the leeches off...

me tired now...too lazi to crap things out...ahahaha~~

ja ne~~

2006-05-02T05:26:00.000-07:00

fun day in skool today...cos there were no bells today!!aha...not tt it realli makes a huge diff but it makes a welcome change in the environment...no bells=can be late...hehehe

think they changing the PA system of NYJC...and they should...i think my sec skool PA system also better lor...haa...then becos of this ....there are some pissed off ppl in the library...cos when u using the lib comp...suddenly will have power-cut! wow...so lucky huh?? all the hard work gone down the drain eve before u can shout "save!". And it dint happen once ya? 2 or 3 times in the span of an hour...lights goin on and off...im jus glad the air con is stil functioning...3 cheers to the selfless me...

then today during gp...teacher got call us think of the most emo movie u ever seen...for me its straight up "hotaru no haka" the 1988 one...havent seen the recent live-action one...dun think they ever sell the vcd/dvd in sg...maybe i shall go buy the dvd verson of the 19888 one...hmmmm....jus maybe...

well elections coming by, but im stil unable to vote. dun ever think me consituency will ever got a chance to vote...after all..its old man goh lor...who wanna waste their deposits...anyways im kinda dissapointted with the campaigning done...seems to me to be filled wif smearing exercises , thinly-veiled personal attks and relentless shooting...if this is politics...oh mans...democracy is such a screwed up way of governance...we need a Big Brother...ahaha...jkjk...

arrogance will lead you to nowhere except maybe to your demise...

ja ne~~

2006-04-26T07:27:00.000-07:00

rare apperance!! ahha..its gonna be more obvious in days to come...

oppression in skool is getting more obvious these few days...from top-down...btw im reserving comments here...haha...

blogging is getting sian liao...hahaa...maybe cos got lesser kick out of it now???haha...nvm i shall change my blogskin soon!! It seems to be the onli way to keep me motivated..aha...

also...my photobucket acc is reaching its bandwidth limit...dots sia...use so lttle nia...lidat also ji jiao sooooo much...

many other rants...but jus too lazy to type it all out...

need to find article for gp tmr...beats doing an essay plan or an actual one...haaa...

2006-04-24T19:49:00.000-07:00

Sad case for me...

i cant use me comp tt often anymore...so tt means there's gonna be less updates liao....

hai~~no more anime as far as i can foresee....cos i think the skool comp will be wat im using the most....lol...

so much to rant but jus dunno how to say it out...prolly cos of time contraint...bleh....dun ell me next time need to think of wat to blog liao then come blog???waaaa....damn sian leh...damn....im gonna really miss using my comp...and all the anime and manga marathons deep into night til 5am...sighs...my main source of entertainment...sians

oh well, sometimes things happen and we jus have to deal wif it yup??? on to happier stuff...
Death note is gonna be made into a movie...and its opening in Japan realli soon!!

actuali its 2 movies from wat i can gather...first part in june and the other in october...cant wait to see how they can manage putting in the complex storyline into this two movies...cos...methink they wiil complete the L arc...haha...but, the characters still look nicer in comic...lol....especially Misa...heee...

for more info go here!! its in jap btw...good luck deciphering!haah...need help from gloria-sensei liao..hehehee

better go do some productive stuff now....hahaha....

ja ne~~

http://pdl.warnerbros.com/wbol/jp/deathnote/

2006-04-12T08:28:00.000-07:00

becos sum ppl say i nvr update....tts y i updating now...lol

noticed sumting recently...when some ppl blog, they anthropromize their blog. Simply put, give it a kinda human form...so we have ppl's entry tt looks like a psychopath talking to a teddy bear or someone talking to sumting inanimate...haha...hope i dint make anyone angry wif tt statement.

well i belive wat crap we post on our blog are after all, our crap and thus we dun need to give a shit abt wat others think abt it...

*insert angsty paragraph tt says we are the masters of our lives*

haha.....in praise of idleness~~~

maybe i shld start talking to my blog....haah...but me wont give it a generic name...maybe i jus talk to the anime characters to the left of this box!!lol

"nodoka-chan, yue-chan, i feel very sad today...cos i dint see any cute gals...but luckily when i come here...i see the both of u..."

lol...freaky...and i think maybe im jus gonna do tt if im tt free...ehhehe

2006-04-08T05:54:00.000-07:00

weeeee....finally donated blood yesterday...lol...really nothing much to it...haha...my biopsy was more scary...lol...lots of waiting time while i was blooded so i took my hp and snapped a shot of the poked area....haaa...but too bad its covered by gauze...sad sia...ehhe

after i donated blood, me go eat the free stuff there...haah...shldnt have eaten lunch b4 donating blood...if not can pig out...haha...so in the end jus drink a pack of milo...in summary i sold my blood for a packet of milo!!lol

oh yah....i purposely go and get a pink bandage...lol...
cos i wearing orange project x ytd and it wont have any contrast if i took orange...haha...other colors so boring...eeee...

later chem lesson...so sian...so zi lian a while...hahaha...

yay....so i finally did something for the society...i sacrificed one hour of my break time which will be used for staring blankly into space...oh yah...havent eat the iron tablets...hahhaheck care la...i slp for more than 18 hours since the donation liao...shld be alright liao...after all....sleep cures everything...ahhaa

ja ne~~

2006-04-06T05:50:00.000-07:00

oh mans....so long since i updated...haha...not feeling welll ma....so sleep more lor...haha....past week got 2x 12 hours uninterrupted sleep!! oh yeahs!!!! sleep is definitely good....muahahaha...

and crap!!! gonna go ns checkup alone...june 6 at 10 am....sians....put it here to remind me...lol...

abt the filling up of the e-form....damn sians...somehow they changed my bloody password...zzz...lucki i stil can rmb the special question i set last time....haha...manga reading rocks!

one thing veri funni there....under swimming capabilities...one option is under 50 metres...ahaha...wah liao...u think how many people can swim til 50m depth....i reach ten i happy liao lor....but i dun intend to try...ear veri pain....not fun...hahahah

tmr got blood donation...yeah can pon lesson...lol...but not sure which one yet...oh wells...got a blood test first i think...which i took b4 last time for biopsy...lol...need 10cm^3 if i not wrong...haha...wonder how much they will take from me in total tmr...at least i got reason not to act weak the next few days...and eat pig liver!! muahahaha...

and zzz...sumone asked me stoopid question today....was me answerring truthfully??? in our hearts we always have a deep and darkest secrets...a flame waiting to be re-kindled...or a pandora's box...i have no intentions in making it start all over again...after all, some things are best left untouched...

ashes to ashes
dust to dust
its already over
so let it rust!!

"the last that ever she saw him,carried away by a moonlight shadow."

and i think itds abt time me change my blogskin...dun even care abt mahou sensei anymore...but still honya-chan is stil kawaii!!!

ja ne~~

2006-03-28T03:56:00.000-08:00

been coughin me whole day~~~haha...so "fun"

this morning woke up and coughed out phlegm...eh...brown color...but nvr wear contacts and specs so cant see clearly...die die die...sick le....lol...in this short space of less than 4 months...im sick again!! dun think i seeing doc this time still got codeine in my hse...haha...frm me last vist...got give but onli take one tablet...lol..and yes i detest cough syrups...

whole day school cough cough cough...then misplace pencil box....sianded...sure koped by other ppl liao...nothing much inside there cept for my rsn badge and my calculator...hai~~stil can use my sis one...lol...nvm...

got chased by boo to type out essay...lol...canno evade le...haha...later then do ba...try out differential eqns tutorial...also must fish out my complex numbers notes...sians....if it is called imaginary numbers...why can't i jus imagine out the answer wif my mind??

hai~~jus spitted out green phlegm...kapui...lol...recovering??haa

*edit finished typing out essay...haha...type so long le just to send to cher??dammit no way!...post it just for kicks...but be warned though...if u are religious...dun read....haha...at least i think tt way...now i shall produce my essay with INVISIBLE FONT!!!

1) “The world would be a better place without religion.” Do you agree?

The world without religion may seem chaotic and unpleasant to the religious majority but is that really the case? Religion may have been integrated with our lives but it does not mean it is beneficial to us. The world is a better place without religion as it imposes many archaic restrictions on us but it is still somewhat important as it imparts crucial moral values and a social-binding force.

Religion impedes human progress in many ways. Religion is the things that we believe in without any proof or evidence and is also synonymous with the word faith. Two centuries of science and technology has brought about more progress than a millennia of theology. The standard of living of the world has improved drastically with the advancement of science. Religions often comes into conflict with science as they are irreconcilable subjects. One requires faith, while the other requires evidence. The scientific method includes postulating hypotheses and running them through the gamut with experiments. Faith however, is the blind belief with no absolute proof. It is not surprising that both will clash and has been documented with row over Galileo Galilei and the Roman Catholic Church. Galileo theorized that the universe was heliocentric and as opposed to geocentrism which was what the Church believed. He was then damned as a heretic and was then placed under house arrest. Even now, as Bush has a religious slant, the Bush administration has placed a blanket ban over cloning, be it therapeutic or reproductive. Thus we can see that religious institutions and individuals may use their power and block scientific progress as they deem it incorrect according to their faith. As a result, progress is hindered and thus religion should be placed with lesser importance.

Another reason why religions should be dissolved is that it is often inaccurate regarding history and events. Abrahamic religions is littered with personalities that lived more than 2 centuries old. It is an impossible feat by any standards. Labeling all these acts of God does not license it to be the truth as the truth must be something that can be proved. One of the absurdities that the creationists still believe is that Man walked together with dinosaurs. Carbon dating and examining the age of the fossils according to the layers refutes them. A certain Middle-eastern country still decrees that the earth is flat. Another point to note is in the New Testament where contradictions at Christ’s resurrection were abound among the Gospels. If the Holy Bible is truly the “Word of God” why is it contradictory when “God” is supposed to be omniscient? Thus religion imparts the wrong values and misinformation to the masses. The Church’s dogmatic approach to its believers make it all much worse. The masses are blinded from the truth and their minds filled with fallacies. How is world a better place unless we remove these detrimental influences?

Religion is also used as a cause of war and violence. The Salem Witch trials, the many Crusades, and even the rise of terrorism now are linked to it. All that were done in the name of religion and the atrocities people do under religious convictions are horrifying. They use their God’s name to prove that what they were doing was correct and just. These acts of violence should not be tolerated at all. In order to prevent such people from committing similar acts again we have to remove the cause, which is religion.

One says that religion has a positive impact on our morals and enable to discern what is right and wrong. But is it really the case? Pre-catholic Rome was the most advanced civilization of its time and its people led a rather comfortable lives compared to their peers. It was considered the cultured civilization where through philosophy and logic, people are able to lead moral lives. Must morality be derived from religion or can it also be from other sources. Thus it is viable to abolish religion as we are able to cope without it.

Religion is seen by many as a social cohesive force that is able to make people of different creed join together. But more often than not, it causes fragmentation within the society. The Northern Ireland conflict and the struggle of the LTTE in Sri Lanka are both caused by the fragmentisation due to religion. Most religions are unable to assimilate into one another as they often claim superiority over others. As people are unable to come to terms with another, they do not understand each other and it breeds mistrust among them. When all this occur, tension will ensue and thus it is better if religion did not exist to separate the global population.

Religion is like a crutch that Man has relied on for far too long. We had use it in our past to relate to the world when our understanding was limited. It is now time to cast away this crutch so that we can stand tall with our own strength and march towards progress. Religion is after all, an over-rated father–figure.
comp-idiots out there...prs ctrl-a to see the thing...haha...

ja ne~~

2006-03-25T08:59:00.000-08:00

What do u think about the planetarium?
That beautiful twinkling of eternity that will never fade,no matter when.
All the stars in all the sky are waiting for you
What do you about the planetarian?

Reverie Planetarian

Finished reading planetarian today. Its a kinetic novel...eerrr...ok...its like a game lidat but u jus keep clicking and u read a story from it k?

All i can say tt it was a veri enriching experience for me. The time spent acquiring this and going thru the story was worth it. It has a fairly good storyline and posesses veri good gfx and in game music...and its veri touching...in fact i feel like crying now when i recall my experiences from this...haha...the ending was kinda expected but it still managed to make a large impact on me...
listening to the music after playing the game still makes my tears well up...ahaah

im still kinda speechless abt this. i dunn even noe wat to call it its not a game nor a novel directly.to call it a e-novel would be blasphemous to Key, the makers of this thingy. sumting more similar to picture books i suppose...rmb my kgne times...more sobbing...lol...hai~~good stuff but who to share it wif...lol...cos getting this to work was not so easy ya?had to do some researching and tinkering...plus i dunno jap!!restricted romanji....hahahaha

hmmm...note...this was more than a hundred times better than the last crappy movie i saw...

learnt a new jap phrase..."mata ashitane" which translate to see you tmr...ahhaha...but wont be ending with tt cos i dun blog daily conscienciously and dun think anyone visits this bloggy here daily...lol...guess i'll still end of in my old way...

ja ne~~

2006-03-23T07:43:00.000-08:00

yoooooooosh~~~~~~

finally completed imperishable night(IN for short now)!!

Think most of yall dunno wats it abt so i guess i better start explaining ya?lol

its a curtain-fire shoot-em-up in which u control a team of 2 gals(one human one youkai...cant tell the diff though...lol...) and blast out of the forest and launch into the mooon!!!!

gameplay is similar to all those airplane games u see in arcades...but IN...u control kawaii bishoujos~~ahaha...the boss also very diff...very small size compare to those arcade ones...

wat struck me most abt this game is tt is the work of a single person....yes, he produced the graphics and music all by himself!! ZUN is teh 1337!!! All the battle music fit the theme so well...haha...maybe can play when i doing HW...lol...damn...i feel good after completing it...jus got a normal ending onli...but consider qte good liao...haha...wah liew got some bullet patterns impossible to dodge one la...damn sians...now acquiring other games from this series...hope tt i can get to play this soon~~lol...no ps2 then play this kinda rare and nice games...ahhahaahaha...if u can find a copy of this game...i say u goood...haha

and lucius work hard at ur onimusha!!and wj at ur ichigo 100%

ja ne~~

2006-03-22T04:44:00.001-08:00

Five (5) lessons to make you think about the way we treat people.

1 - First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady.

During my second month of college, our professor
gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student
and had breezed through the questions until I read
the last one:

"What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?"
Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the
cleaning woman several times. She was tall,
dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name?

I handed in my paper, leaving the last question
blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if
the last question would count toward our quiz grade.

"Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers,
you will meet many people. All are significant. They
deserve your attention and care, even if all you do
is smile and say "hello."

I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her
name was Dorothy.

2. - Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain

One night, at11:30 p.m., an older African American
woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway
trying to endure a lashing rainstorm. Her car had
broken down and she desperately needed a ride.
Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car.
A young white man stopped to help her, generally
unheard of in those conflict-filled 1960s. The man
took her to safety, helped her get assistance, and
put her into a taxicab.

She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his
address and thanked him. Seven days went by and a
knock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a
giant console color TV was delivered to his home. A
special note was attached..

It read:
"Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway
the other night. The rain drenched not only my
clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along.
Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying
husband's bedside just before he passed away... God
bless you for helping me and unselfishly serving
others."

Sincerely,
Mrs. Nat King Cole.

3 - Third Important Lesson - Always remember those
who serve.

In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less,
a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and
sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in
front of him.

"How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked.

"Fifty cents," replied the waitress.

The little boy pulled is hand out of his pocket and
studied the coins in it.

"Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired.

By now more people were waiting for a table and the
waitress was growing impatient.

"Thirty-five cents," she brusquely replied.

The little boy again counted his coins.

"I'll have the plain ice cream," he said.

The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on
the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice
cream, paid the cashier and left. When the waitress
came back, she began to cry as she wiped down the
table. There, placed neatly beside the empty dish,
were two nickels and five pennies..

You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had
to have enough left to leave her a tip.

4 - Fourth Important Lesson. - The obstacle in Our Path.

In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a
roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if
anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the
king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by
and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the
King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did
anything about getting the stone out of the way.

Then a peasant came along carrying a load of
vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the
peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the
stone to the side of the road. After much pushing
and straining, he finally succeeded. After the
peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed
a purse lying in the road where the boulder had
been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note
from the King indicating that the gold was for the
person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The
peasant learned what many of us never understand!

Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve
our condition.

5 - Fifth Important Lesson - Giving When it Counts...

Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a
hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who
was suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her only
chance of recovery appeared to be a blood
transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had
miraculously survived the same disease and had
developed the antibodies needed to combat the
illness. The doctor explained the situation to her
little brother, and asked the little boy if he would
be willing to give his blood to his sister.

I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a
deep breath and saying, "Yes I'll do it if it will
save her." As the transfusion progressed, he lay in
bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did,
seeing the color returning to her cheek. Then his
face grew pale and his smile faded.

He looked up at the doctor and asked with a
trembling voice, "Will I start to die right away".

Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the
doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his
sister all of his blood in order to save her.

Now you have 2 choices.

1. Delete this email, or
2. Forward it to people you care about.
I hope that you will choose No. 2 and remember.

Most importantly.................. "Work like you
don't need the money, love like you've never been
hurt, and dance like you do when nobody's watching."

NOW more than ever - Peace...Pass It On....

finally an email tt i wanna proliferate...wanna say tt i dedicate this to my buddies and frens (classmate??lol) in og12 and 05s9d...also to mok, zy and dh...haha

its a series of touching stories of self-sacrifice and provide nuggets of growth for all of us. The events tt have gone past. It gives me a tingling sensation of regret. All tt had happened in the past seems to be a mistake. Hope tt this email made yall think a bit more on how much have we helped others(or whether do we even bother to). Cheers to the sauce

ahha...doing this on me blog cos i dun like to spam ppl...lol...wasting bandwidth

ja ne~~

2006-03-22T04:44:00.000-08:00

Five (5) lessons to make you think about the way we treat people.

2006-03-11T08:49:00.000-08:00

Just created an anime list that i had watched and im kind shocked..lol

let yall see..

Chasing:

Bleach
Fate/Stay night
Ergo Proxy
Yakitate! Japan
Mai Otome
REC

Watched (no particular order):

Gundam Seed
Gundam Seed Destiny
Turn A Gundam
Elfen Lied
Mai-hime
Midori no Hibi
Now and Here, Then and There
Sousei no Aquarion
Ghost in the Shell:Stand Alone Complex
Suzuka
Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien
Chobits
Gunslinger Girls
Rah Xephon
Chrono Crusade
Samurai 7
Hellsing
Air
Shuffle
Mahou Shoujo Lyrical Nanoha
Mahou Shoujo Lyrical Nanoha A's
Rozen Maiden
Rozen Maiden:Traumend
S-cry-ed
Neoon GEnesis Evangelion
Love Hina
Fooly Cooly(FLCL)
2x2 Shinobuden
DearS
Bokusatsu Tenshi Dokuro-chan
Ichigo 100%
Fullmetal Panic
Fullmetal Panic Fumoffu
Fullmetal Panic: The Second Raid
Samurai Champloo
Full Metal Alchemist
Mahoraba Heartful Days
Fruits Basket

Wanna watch:
Kage Kara Mamoru
Kyou kara Maou
Pani Poni Dash
Blood+
Azumanga Daioh(maybe jus read manga..lol)
School Rumble
Erementar Gerad(last 4 epi)
Trinity Blood
Binchou-tan
Kono Minikuku mo Utsukushii Sekai
Shinigami no Ballad
Karin
Kashimashi
Koi Kaze
Canvas~Motif of Sepia
Canvas 2~Niji Iro no Sketch~

lol...stunned...within 1 year+++ onli leh...
haha...and alot of 'wanna watch" series is cos i too lazy to chase it weekly..lol..think can add 2 anime into my chasing series...lol...and i havent added anime movies...yet...also nvr list the anime i gave up on like naruto, ultimate girls, final approach...and other qte crappy show...final approach is ok though...jus tt i forgot where i saw til and too lazi to find out...

And i finally watched Grave of the Fireflies...super emo show...if i watch alone at night will surely (T _ T)...old gem...from 1988...waa...i feel depressed thinking abt it...the characters are veri poor thing one...im going to see it again sometime soon...and maybe see te live-action movie..im depressed liao...

hai~~~~

ja ne~~

2006-03-11T05:06:00.000-08:00

sighs...comp tio virus...have to reformat...but this time at least got back up files...ahaha...

maybe jus those impt ones like me pics, songs and Imperishable Night!!haha...im getting addicted to tt game...if onli i can get the rest of the touhou series games...mou~~~

updating comp past few days...try to set it back to my preferred way...zhnging my comp??lol...but all software nia...hardware maybe later ba...no money...=(

today got physics SPA skill A...thx god i have mark lim as me physics tutor...tot all of us how to shorten the model answer...target the requirement...not tt exact format...haha...but i kunda did it my way...so diff from the model answer but at least i think most of the points there...

But i still have gripes!! My contact lens was loose and it went out of place!! WTF moment...rushed to toilet but canno find the bloody lens in my eye....lol...boh pian so have to du yan long( one-eye dragon)...then our dear nyjc physics dpt has a stroke of genius and decided to use the visualiser to put up the question...whoopie...our clas qte pissed cos our eyes all got prob one...wear specs then canno see(we need our contacts!!lol)....i there sian diao...but nvm...lucky there are leeks...=)

now chiong ing suzuka...continued from last time...im glad to stay away from fighting+action anime...haha...everytime fight for wat...if fight also for a better reason and at least have a decent plot(ergo proxy gonna be damn interesting!!)...haha....think ppl can use suzuka as a dating guide...got show the forbiddens in a relationships...lol...it helps tt it is filled wif bishoujo too...esp suzuka-chan~~mou~~few more episodes....then i gonna read the manga from the beginning...hope can enjoy it...then maybe i start chasing kashimashi???ahha...the manga damn nice too read...lol

block test are for block-heads and gorblocks...and bware of kookoogers!!
not-so invisble ink...lol
ja ne~~

2006-03-07T03:33:00.000-08:00

Life is a pms-ing bitch when ur sick....

Got a throat infection at arnd last fri... throat felt like its burning most of the time...talk tt time also will pain....sianz...canno tok crap... so spent mos of my time sleeping lor....zzzz....6pm to 6am...lol..

today worst...today got somebody bring chips to skool....but...argh~~~ canno eat...sobs sobs...jus me and my halls to sooth my throat...then cannt eat the food i wanna eat...so sian...

and i stil owe boo the typed version of me gp essay...dinosaur-sticker standard u noe...hahaha...but realli la...ny gp standard f***-up la...get so bad liao then this kinda "reward"??...firstly its a bit kindergarten-ish and no point la...reward got so low criteria...i like"WTH...get so low also got prize ar???LOL" and our new principal seems to epitomise our excellence in the english language...

note to self:mus use cheem english on me own to counter-act the bad atmosphere arnd me...hahaha...55% is crap lor...

hai~~

nvm...at least i stil got my new obsession....hahaha

jus hope all this get over quicklyINVISIBLE INK!!!LOL

ja ne~~

2006-03-05T06:52:00.000-08:00

Came online cos i felt like it...ahha...listened to LJJ's CC...but got not much impact leh....maybe i expect too much from him?? but he dun have a stand-out song at all leh...lol...hope his grpies wont kill me...

watched bai yun gang...lol...critiques canno be so mean...later get whooped by the ppl arnd me...haah...first story veri angst+emo...got ppl die sia...lol....pity got no blood...heehehe

sec story more entertaining...esp when u noe one of the performers and tt char veri AC...lol...hhaa nice nice~~~and this show makes me rmb a phrase..."xi gua tian bu tian?"

hai~~kena throat infection....sick liao...dunno whether heng or suay tt it was most serious in the weekend...feel like crap lor....whole day throat so pain...*toot*...i need lozenges...sobs...

now got so much music to listen to...lol...dunno when i can listen finish...

time-wasting...did some quizzes...lol

You were a prince/princess in your past life, and

lived in a great castle with the most

beautiful of gardens in all the land.
Prince:You protected your people and loved your

lover with your heart. You were to be king

after your father died, which is what

happened, and you died a happy,honourable

death.
Princess: You loved your kingdom, and your people

loved you for you treated everyone

equally.Everything was perfect. Your favorite

place to be in were the castle gardens,for

the were beutiful and full of life. You died

as a queen married to your lover.
Flower: Lilly
Colour:Crystilac Silver
Instrument:Harp
Element:Earth
Weapon:Bow and Arrow

What were YOU in your past life? (pictures, detailed results,everyone can take it)
brought to you by Quizilla

waaa...stereotypical result for me???how can??and OMG!!! of all things CCS???

Moon: You are the god of the moon.you are cold and

silent, no one knows much about you and they

think there is not alot to know, but they

are wrong...

What dark god are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

your paranoid! very..paranoid..O_Oyou hurt people

who piss you off! do me a favor and kill

george bush? =P

What MSN icon best desribes you??
brought to you by Quizilla

and the dp veri nice...lol

Darkness is your element. It may not be a true

element, but it definately expresses you. You

are cold, dark, and lonely. Your eyes show

nothing but anger, depression, and loss.

Quote: "One unhappy day for you, the world

will be mine."

What is your true element (stunning pictures/not what you would expect)
brought to you by Quizilla

and i had this pic qte some time ago....guro rocks...

You are the Goddess of Ice.

-You have a hardened heart, and rarely show

emotion. You are cold, and, though you are

not necessarily a loner, you enjoy being

isolated from others. You do not think highly

of most people, and consider them weak and

ignorant, so you do not hesitate to strike

them down. You can be quite cruel, and do not

regret your actions. You are a very rational

person, and often find yourself deep in

thought.

Which Elemental Goddess Are You? (yes, it has anime pictures)
brought to you by Quizilla

lol...tts the sadistic part abt me....hehe

2006-03-01T02:28:00.000-08:00

took comments into sonsideration and changed the links...haha...so self-satisfying to edit ur blogskin...

if ya encounter problems again....hit the refresh button~~lol...think tt solves the problem...lol...

and this blog intended for firefox ( u r noob if u dint hear of it b4)...hmm...but i think i gonna change the whole blogskin soon...ahaha...cos i suddenly feel like adding more stuff in le...lol...

today release a level result...tot also got give back pw but dint have...dammit lo...cheat my feelings la...becos of the release got a veri interesting timetable today...my first real tutorial was at 1215...yup...so the whole morning was free~~wooot?

but need to do maths question which was given by mr heng...and OMG so hard to do!!with veri weird reasoning...i managed to do one part of the sum...and i dint do qte a lot cos i too lazi to think..hahaa...sure kena scolded...lol...

get result tt time...onli start to get anxious when enter classroom...cos i noe my register no. small...hahaha..surely veri fast one...and i dun understand ppl who dun dare to look at their results...i mean its a matter of time ma...why prolong tt awkward feeling of halluciniating abt ur results??(Ms Lim v totful to this ppl...covered the results for us...)

slammed down the result slip on the table and look at me grade...cool~~get b...dunnit retake...not too shabby too...but wait...ao result normally got 1 digit behind huh?? scanned the un-aesthetical piece of paper for a lone digit and i saw a 4... aiya...compare to my o lvl scores qte obiang...lol...damn...feel like crap...esp hear the ppl arnd me like all getting better results...

YAMERO!!!

ahaah...jk...then self-psycho session started...hmmm...effort-to result conversion qte high for me leh..dint study chinese at all under the pretext of teach less learn more...hahaha...also recall tt i dint do much for chinese so...fair result???and i noe tt there is no end to getting high grades and thus....no point thinking so much over it...hahaha...i jus lost my chance to be those freaks tt get 5,6 distinctions for a's....(those are reeeaaaal freaks)

following one of my life's motto...

if life gives u crap...make fertilisers...

and always rmb to have PMS(Positive Mind-Set) haha...

lotsa casualties here and there...i may sound heartless but hey...those results are the reality liao...accept it and slowly work ya way out yup???this will the veri first step u take after crashing down to the floor...well sumting lidat...i think...ehehe...

bought lotsa snacks...ehhee...can pig out if i wan but....argh...so many calories...life is tuff

ja ne~~

2006-02-26T08:44:00.000-08:00

edited my blogskin in less than 40min??less emo this time...needs more colors though....give some comments k??haha

damn i stil not sleepy...

a real bb now...

ja ne~~

2006-02-26T06:48:00.000-08:00

1 week dint blog...cos...theres realli nothing to talk abt ya??haha...actualli have la...jus tt a bit sian to blog le...hehee

this week got sooo many ppl falling sick...esp in my class...4or5 le ba...haha...but i am strong!! those ailments wil never plague me!! i hope..hehe

although im a bit lag...i finally saw INS2...show was qte nice...but its a bit text-bookish...cos its starts of light-heartedly b4 going into a more sombre mood...hmm...jack neo shld try to change this standard approach ya??and ben and jerry's ice cream is nice...lol...

and finally...i got rid of my SE T610..yep yep...tt battle-scarred and detachable keypad cover phone(not by choice)...no more laggy controls...no more grainy pics and finally mp3 playback on my phone..yoooosh!!!

Happi new phone to me...
happi new phone to me...
I have a new handphone
happi new phone to me

hehe...better stop saying le...if not later sound like im bragging...no wait~~i already am...MUAHAHAHA

tmr got chem SPA...but its like qte easy i think...jus got to memorise the errors...graph jus draw with a bit more effort??which mean i need curve rule...*quickly puts in bag*

think i need a new blogskin le...haha...think im out of my emo phase...

ja ne~~

2006-02-20T05:56:00.000-08:00

hai~~accidentally reboot my comp b4 posting...sian...my minute to minute updating on campus superstar!!! AARRGGHH!!!!...cannot see the full fury of my cowell-ism...lol...ook...try to rehash all tt i can rmb... my memory not so qiang to rmb time so i do contestant by minutes...hmmm..this may be the closest thing to minutes tt im doing...all u pw ppl shld noe wats tt...ahaha

Ok...firstly i need to say tt i am not condemning the campus superstar peeps...i noe u have better vocals than me and tt is a fact. my comments are not to taken seriously and is only meant as fun for me readers ya??
authors note: u realli need a disclaimer nowsaday...lol...later i get whacked by those grpies...)

Jus start wif my recollections after seeing the show...

F1:

She got realli realli funny makeup...cheeks are so red tts its kinda freaky...weird hairdo
Moral of story-TV will make ugly ppl uglier...and pretty ppl prettier...got so interested tt i forgot abt the singing..lol

F2:

haha...familiar song...sorri gal but ur zhuan yin not good enuff...can somehow it seems weird..dunno how to put it...not to smooth too

F3:

the one i missed...nthing much to say...lol...no, i dun hate u...its jus mediacorp k??

F4:

aiya...no breath issit?? like no steam at all la...ahaha

F5:

wow...pick an ah mei song...haa...tuff time ahead leh...cant realli compare u to ahmei cos shes too good...haha...but ok la..for the standard...

F6:

oooh...hard to out-act-cute cyndi...ahaha...good attempt though...but the vocals cant keep up wif cyndi liao...dang ni tao tai shi hui zhuo shen me? lol...but this gal qte popular sia...lol

M1:

start got some kind of feel...but towards the ending...eeerrr...and also chorus tt time out of breath...NT...

M2:

oooh...zhuan yin not there...tao ze song some more...ahaa...u have a bit of puuppy's eyes....use it to some effect ya??

M3:

u make a rock song into sumting cabaret...maybe it takes some skill to do tt but...i pray for ur safety..hope mayday fans wont kill u...

M4:

ok...fast songs can cover certain flaws but it also makes some obvious ya??and fast songs kinda suit ur many many patterns...but whether tt would be helpful is a point of discussion...and wu qixian said short ppl are better singers...ahahaha

M5:

my mum said ur montonous...lol...and i concur(catch me if u can...=p)...no kick leh...and the band like overpower ur vocals..

M6: ooh...nice specs...ahhaa...not too bad...cant realli recall anything awful...so shld be not tt bad...but it could be i stm or not paying attention...jus saw the recap...nice voice control..lol

note: i have no prejudice even though i come from NYJC...i do not not have prejudice....i discriminate against all...ahaha

results show now and *drumrolls* and the highest score ppl went in...did they realli sing well or was there some interference by the judges?? maybe they planned liao...all behind the scenes...ahhaah...got cash payout sia....me saying this cos it all seems to much of a coincidence...it doesnt realli matter much to me though...life goes on...but i think i would realli hate it if they made us go to the finals...but tts if he managed to reach the top few...*STAB-STAB*.

And to all that voted for ppl who dint get in...it was a lousy investment wif almost negligible returns...

and...the NYP scandal!! OMGWTHLOLBBQ!!! sauce sauce sauce!!!

u all shld noe wat im saying...think i qte lagged on this issue...haha...

guess tt's all...and dun worry, ppl whose blog i jus saw..i link yall nxt time...time to ZzZ...
crap...dint watch anime today...oh well...can choose one to complete le...think im going wif suzuka..been a while since i seen a drama one..and its 4 more days to ergo proxy...=)

ja ne~~

2006-02-17T05:46:00.000-08:00

jus woke up from a nap~~refreshed? naaa...i stil wan more zzz...lol

yesterday saw the one(ny-based singing contest)...it rocked!!...well kinda...haha

damn seeing those performing rock songs makes me wanna go high again...so long since i get into a high...sighs...

today dint go for the inter-ct games...dunno how we did...but im optimistic ya??for the $200 marche voucher!! i wan free food!!!lol

speaking of which our skool gave us some combat rations...on the total defence day where no one gives a shit abt it..onli the ppl in charge ba...lol...its put in such unattractive packaging...and from wat i gather...it doesnt taste too good and gives ya constipation...i supposed when u go to war...its not good for u to keep going to pang sai huh??

oh ya...i have to rave abt this anime tts gonna come out soon ...Its called "Ergo Proxy". Even though im not too sure wats the story is abt...i can onli say that the animation is top-notch...the background is beautifulli done and the movement is damn fluid...and the sound is dolby 5.1 kind...WTH!!lol...it also helps tt the main char is a kick-ass gothic chick with a big gun...lol...blue eye-shadow never looked this good...( ^ _ ^ )

cant wait for feb 25...the day where it actualli premieres...hah...i saw the preview onli...(teaser is one whoel episode...lol)

ja ne~~

2006-02-11T09:05:00.000-08:00

the bk story has come to an end...haha...unless nxt time i go eat then take pics again...
lol...o lvl results release liao...haha...see many sad, happy , trbled ppl...(sometime 3 in 1 leh..)
haha...jus make sure u all will be happy whereever u go to yup?? tts wat i hope for u guys...esp OG12 peeps...

and today is thaipusam i think...
saw a couple of kadavis today at orchard road...nvr see those ppl walking on hot charcoal though...not tt i realli care but...oh wth...hahaa

ive got a headache...haah....crap...

lemme kope sumting from ming jue's blog...haha....some quiz...

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Jason (duh...lol)
2. bimbo(yucks...)
3. redhippo(default username for me..haah

)THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:(presumably online nicks)
1. otah_volcano
2. redhippo
3. gakuengore(redundant gmail acc...)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Me eyes
2. Skin tt doesnt break out oo often
3. eyelashes??( counted as another thing ba...lol)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. not dark enuff
2. flab
3. no decent muscle frame

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. being lonely for the rest of my life
2. have no frens to talk to
3. lose my ability to think and speak

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS: (Let's just skip the air, water all these lah yah?)
1. talk crap(any medium or amt)
2. my comp
3. think abt...stuff...(haah)

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. last time ncc pt shorts
2. mjc orientation shirt (wat i normally wear to zzz...LOL)
3. thinking cap =p

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. Mr Big
2. Bowling 4 soup
3. The Pillows

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS:
1. Shi nian(ten years) - Eason Chan
2. Reason- Nami Tamaki
3. Be with you- Mr Big

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. mutual trust
2. accept the good wif the bad
3. both to be nice to each other...(simple wish huh??)

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order): (guess guess~~ Muaha..)
1. I dun give a damn abt anything
2. I think too deeply
3. Im sensitive

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEALS TO YOU: ( but mus see ppl's personality also..haha)

1. bright eyes...(not like goldfish lidat can le...)
2. long nice hair( not dry wif splitends and stuff)
3. a moderate figure(

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. watch anime!!
2. eat good food
3.talk crap + suaning ppl

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Hug the person tt i like...( oh no??)
2. Sleep
3. have a nvr ending (ok...until 1am lidat?) tcs session

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. any teacher ( i thought of back up first)
2. sec skool humanities teacher
3. philosopher( no money so rejected...ahaha)

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. japan
2. switzerland
3. hawaii

THREE KID NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. Cassandra
2.Jason ( yes im narcissist..lol)
3. Kid ( no ideas so sumting lame...^^)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Live my life to the fullest
2. Have a love tt shatters all boundaries(wish nia...lol)
3. Vote in Singapore

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. Expletives come out rater easily sometimes
2. Heck-care attitude??
3. I like gals...(muahaaha)

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. I like to do things wif style...lol
2. I act cute when i feel like it...
3. I care abt my appearances??

Eh...if u read liao then u better do this quiz too...haha...share the joy ma...esp good frens and classmates...lol

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so many potentially scandalous affairs..

haah...if u all can analyse it out then good for ya...u noe i won break so easily...hahahah..im strong k?lol

tts all ba...tmr morning then complete Air...lately got no enegry to chiong anime at nite...hahaa

ja ne~~

2006-02-09T06:01:00.000-08:00

a shorter thursday today~~Lol...mr lim uber nice today..let us offone hour early cos we have an extra practical session and we dint bring our gravitational field tutorial...so yup in exchange for letting us off,we gotta do til question 8!!!a;sp pon guitar today cos i got no mood for it...and i forgot to do sumting today....dammit...think im subconciously denying it...crap! crap! crap! CRAP!

ahaha....since its so high demand...i try to rush out part 2 now...

I know what you did at BK: Part Deux(finale)

Its been so long since she last heard from her Ketchup. Chilli was very worried abt Ketchup. She always stalked him and last night after seeing him going into BK...she never saw him again anymore!1! So she had decided!! She will go to BK land...to look for her eye-candy~~~

With an insane lust within her, she rush into te fray. Ketchup was no where to be seeen. Oh no! Wat shld she do??She then came into contact with Fry. He was french. Fry was another ambusher like the half-eaten burger.

He dropped down like the bombs of the crows. Penetrating Chilli. Chilli felt a quick and sudden pain by her side and collapse to the floor. She felt sumting writhing inside her and in no time, a bubbling sound came from her innards...OMG..Fry is liquifying her organs!!!

A loud rip could be audble for a radious of 100m and Fry came out sated. Another meal. A bit too spicy for his taste though.

As a cruel twist of fate, Chilli was laid to rest next to Ketchup. With final thoughts, Chilli faded away from conciousness. A love that was never meant to be. Something tt was over b4 it began. A lost cause( crap better turn off emo-mode). If we cant be together alive, i am glad tt i will rest with u together, forever.

THE END

author notes(me la...lol) : haha...my good luck gift to all og12 ogm for taking ur o's result and an early v day gift to all who read this blog...This thing has a sad ending but at least they ended up together yup? Mus also thx rice who burst the sauce and made me to take pic of the mess. One thing led to another and there u have it...ahaha..also special thx to ppl who have harassed me to make the sequel...next time go eat tt time then i make encore...hahaha

well well...tts a long author's note

guess tts all for now ba...lol

ja ne~~

2006-02-06T18:36:00.000-08:00

hehehe...finally a skool comp wif a decent resolution...me wonders how ppl survive wif an 800x600 resolution...ahaha

i jus had a maths test earlier and i am going to continue my good run of form of faling to meet the expectations. Hhaha...i wont deny tt my maths sux and i hear many ppl say tt they are gonna fail so it kinda makes me feel better. Yes, i am a sadist. Lol

Now Ny has made up with an extremely crappy program. From now onwards, there will be a reading aloud session in the morning assembly. WTH. We dun need this shit at all. Firstly, its a waste of time as noone will really be bothered by it anyways. Current affairs issue are important but placing it at such an awkward timeslot is senseless. People cant wait to get away and sit down and also we dun give a damn. U can preach to us for all u want but if we are not willing to listen, the voices are jus compresisions and rarefactions in the air.

Well well. maybe im gonna formulate a conspiracy theory that NY is gonna brainwash us into good GP students. By repeating the same old topics of religious harmony over and over again every morning. The next thing we noe they might put it over the PA system. Haha. Wonder who is behind this crap. MOE or NY...

still gotta work on part 2 later...ahaha..and degree-anime stil havent updated for bleach and gantz.. 1 month plus le... wolser...me also got hooked on a new manga le...kashimashi...haha...wonder how the anime will be like...teeheeeheeee ( onee-nii-sama...lol)

aiya..gtg toilet le...haha...the food in NY cmi...lol

ja ne~~

2006-02-05T06:52:00.000-08:00

wow...time passes by so fast...another week flashed past but nothing seems to have changed.

maybe except tt there is a lot more emo ppl. with tt, i propose to form the Anti Emo Patrol aka the AEP. we will not let our fellow fren enter the depressive state tt affect us in multitudes .

You are not alone!!(short and random ravings...ahhaha)

jus had a og outing today. went there 10 b4 time(extremely rare for me) cos i tot sumting had cropped up...yuan lai shi xu1 jing1 yi chang...sianded...no surprises, ppl were late,got last min cancellation(our dearest blur wu gui...), and ppl who din give a damn. haaa~~no point bitching abt all this stuff even if it realli is the year of the dog.

(realisation: it onli take a few letters to change from a "ahah" to a "hai")

oh wells, better change the mood b4 u all call me emo...aahaha

so og12 went to jacqs's hse( "lets go to jacq's place"... 0_o )

went to her hse for lunch...me and rice bao1 wei3.. we so power sia, hopefully im not gonna get sick. later played big 2 and "ban lat", lose all my expendable capital( dun worri..less than 2 bucks)

too busy playing cards and eating so i missed out on the TCS there...haha..crap....

we also had to create an excuse to liberate someone. shant go into details.

and then the remaining few went to bowl. my goodness!! im at good in bowling as a one-legged man in a ass-kicking competition. off day for all these games..

haha...later went to BK to have dinner...rice and ys was wif me...ys ps halfway cos her pops came to pick her up..my god the food thre was awful...beef patties are so dry...the french fry and onion rings are way below standard. crap place. fooled around in there tt resulted in this master piece...

I Know What You Did at BK Pt 1 ( by me and rice or rice and me...whateva..lol)

disclaimer: what you are about to see is of the graphic nature and is not suitable for little kids.Please view at ur own discretion. We are not responsible for any ( - _-") reactions

Burger King. A place that we all are to familiar with. Not like the famous golden arches of McDonald's but the world-renowned shrine of the Whopper burger. Today you will learn about the ugly truth about Burger King. What you see is not what you get. Are you prepared for the worst?

Case 1 : Mutilation of Ketchup by the Carnivorous Half-eaten Rendang Burger

Our first victim is jus like you and me. Someone innocent and distinctively normal. hes arnd a few inches tall and is a bit shy towards to opposite sex cos he wasnt hot enough. Little did he knew what was going to happen to him.

It was a day like any other and Ketchup was going through his daily activities. It was the usual. Lounging around on the table. Wondering wats the next exciting moment of his life. An excitement-seeker, he was. But it was too much for him in this case.

It all happened so fast and within a flash Ketchup found himself between the teeth of the Half-eaten Rendang burger.Ketchup flailed around futilely as the Burger maintain its tight grip on Ketchup's body. Fear pulsed through his packet as he realised. It was over.

CCCRUUUNNCCCHHHH!!!! A loud sickening crack emanated throughout the quiet BK. A sharp pain throughout its boady. An instantaneous pain so intense that it keeled over immediately. A disgusting sweet smell of tomatoes permeated through the air.The thick viscous red fluid was splashed all over.

But it wasnt over, the burger ravaged the lifeless doll that was known as Ketchup. It wasnt very pretty. A horrifying scene. An act of violence against innocent tomato sauce. YOu will be remembered.

The deed was done. The hunt was over. First Blood!!
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to be continued when i feel like it

ja ne~~

2006-01-31T07:16:00.000-08:00

be less emo...my new private mantra??? yup yup not gonna touch on tt today...but it doesnt mean im running away from it

let me blog abt how i lived my life today. something that other ppl finds immature as after all it onli revolves ourselves and nobody else. (its veri inward-looking)

went out hunting today at orchard.
twas a comedy of errors.
not onli was a late,
But alas, an early stop!
Upon realisation i went back to take the train.
Only to realise twas the wrong direction.
oh cruel fate, dear blur me.

met up, got things over and done wif.
and even come across a pair of lovebirds.
snip snap, flash in the pan.
all done and our stomachs starts to growl.

pepper lunch, tt was the place.
in which we partake.
hot-plate, semi-raw meat, raw veggies and such.
all put together in one magnificent rut.

food was good, value-for-money lacking.
but stil, i like tt place.

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wth...somehow i managed to blog in this weird format...an idle is a devil's workshop?
more like frankenstein lab for mine...

ja ne~~

2006-01-30T08:55:00.000-08:00

U noe sometimes when u r carrying out ur daily activities and all that mundane stuff that we are all dread, u will get hit by a sudden bout of realistion abt urself. Does this counts as self-reflection or jus a piece of random emotion that u feel?

well it happen to me jus a few minutes ago. out of the blue, i wondered to myself why ami so fond of guro,blood and weenie bit of violence. There has always been a dark element in the things tt i like. And tts in almost all fields and its inclusions in various subtleties. Jus see this blogskin. I love this picture on the left. all around my stuff i see blood, death, and even violence. Mos of u readers will not noe cos i keep all these things close to myself. too much details make me look like a perverse psychopath

so i have been analysing for the past few minutes. Its my obsession for gore a reflection of my soul? maybe its a subconcious desire within me that is screaming to break free...wanting to break out...is my heart realli filled with pain,regret and resentment? aye, i think tt is true. who to open up to, tt is also a prob. seen many yabbers...tts y i dun like to talk abt certain stuff. wif no form of release wat shld i do? i have found a convenient medium. welcome to guro and such...yee ha...gore is good...

i also start to think why he hell am i so much into anime...my first reason, to forget abt the world tt i am in. to forget abt my woes and fears and live vicariously thru them. everytime i watch a single episode, i feel more at ease and for tt short moment i am in another world. its not a perfect world. there are stil losses and miseries. but hey at least its not affecting me directly yup?

for so many times i have stopped myself...self-doubt or self-denial? both are equally bad...im a burner of bridges, the proverbial person who came to the door too late and frog within the well all rolled into one.

say tt to me and i will reply...

touche

guess this is close to wat i call a random bout of emo-ness...think im slowly losing the right to call ppl emo...cos after all i may be one after all...messy ramblings...how unsightly...blaaa

holy crap!! have i become emo?????

2006-01-27T08:10:00.000-08:00

cross-country.

When one says that word , one would probably be thinking of a group of crazy ppl running an absurdly long distance for the sake of a transcient title.

Well that did not happen in my case today. In fact i walked the whole thing and i dun realli feel ashamed about it. Hearing a conspiracy theory behind the 2.4 km run from rice, i seriously wonder wat on earth are we doing all these in the first place. Better put some self-censorship in this place. Later mindef ppl invite me for tea. Haha

So i walked the whole thing wif tonite and rice. PSing a few ppl along the way. Near the finishing line tt time we decided to wait for te rest of our og ppl to cross tt sacred line together. So u have a trio of mature young adults frolicking around in the playground. Cool huh? (eyes on me!)

later went for og outing that requires lotsa waiting. also had a scandalous affair in our og. heehee. damn, ur fast. haha

later had a sesson of pool where we tot the noobs how to play. good progress, haahaa. also not up to form on some games. i need more practise ya??

and then we headed to the seoul garden at bugis. planning all the stuff is a PITA. haaaaa. mus run to the restaurant lor. stupid counter staff. crap em

kinda pissed at em so decided to make them earn less money. rice was bside me and we both ate like ppl who jus came out of a hunger retreat. ate lotsa stuff. almost everyone was shock by our intake volume. especially the last plate of meat tt i took. all 0_0 cept for me and rice.

eat until darn full but did not have the sakae-sushi effect. prolly cos no rice. haha. i also missed out on the ice cream. but im not too sad over it. cos i ate strwberry sundae jus now le...hahaah

stomach felt funny after the whole meal...lol...so go arcade but dint play...saw a guy playing para...w/o the guiding arrows but he stil looks damn weird playin leh...

ahaha...went home liao...and yay...me sis helped me burned all the dl able songs from 02jam...yay!!can play more le....muahahahaha

happy lunar new year'eve evryone

haha

ja ne~~

2006-01-25T04:49:00.000-08:00

Painful love is what is deep

inside of you. When you love, you love with

your whole being, and therefore, you get

crushed if or when it ends... You are deep

and sorrowed, wise far beyond your years. You

don't say much, but your thoughts are never

still. You aren't of this world.

Please rate aaaaand... eat chocolate bars?

What Love are you Fated for? ~AWESOME anime pics!~
brought to you by Quizilla

Cool!! i need to eat chocolate bars!!! Yeah!! Haha. Hmmmm...partly true i guess but arent this quizes supposed to work this way? LOL.. Painful love = stress and emo....eeeeekk i dun wan~~~~

2006-01-24T04:40:00.000-08:00

On killing a tree

It takes much time to kill a tree,
Not a simple jab of the knife
Will do it. It has grown
Slowly consuming the earth,
Rising out of it, feeding
Upon its crust, absorbing
Years of sunlight, air, water,
And out of its leprous hide
Sprouting leaves.

So hack and chop
But this alone won't do it.
Not so much pain will do it.
The bleeding bark will heal
And from close to the ground
Will rise curled green twigs,
Miniature boughs
Which if unchecked will expand again
To former size.

No,
The root is to be pulled out-
Out of the anchoring earth;
It is to be roped, tied,
And pulled out-snapped out
Or pulled out entirely,
Out from the earth-cave,
And the strength of the tree exposed,
The source, white and wet,
The most sensitive, hidden
For years inside the earth.

Then the matter
Of scorching and choking
In sun and air,
Browning, hardening,
Twisting, withering,

And then it is done.

Gieve Patel

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felt like quoting this poem....hahahaha...its been a long time since i came in touch wif it. ahhhthe good old days of going to speech and drama lessons(but its more of speech...haha)

this also brought out something tt i did in gp lessons jus now...abt tone and attitude...

leave it for u all to grasp it(esp at 9d peeps...hahaha)

dunno how to end so i shall leave this hanging....ehehheheaa

ja ne~~

2006-01-23T06:01:00.000-08:00

waaa crap!!! somehow there is the smell of stinky durians wafting into my house. i feel nauseous. Its making me feel faint and imma gonna puke soon if i stay any longer at the comp. Better go off for now...

i hate durians. I really do.

jus watched rozen maiden traumend 11 and mai otome 15...feel a bit sad after it all...nevertheless fate/stay night made me day!! ahaha...cant wait to see more of saber and rin!! moe~~

ja ne~~

2006-01-22T03:34:00.000-08:00

Wow...quite a long time since my previous update.haah. too busy ma.lol. i atm so jus gonna blog abt wat happen this weekend...lol!!

well on saturday the j2s have CIP!! collect old newspaper and clothing. But the planners a bit CMI, last week got another group collect liao lor.yesterday go again a bit no point sia...but wth...we will be carrying less things anyways...lol

my group was lucky yup?? the 2 buildings tt we were assisgned to was only arnd 4 stories high...so we finshed in less than an hour?? but stil cannot slack la...go help the rest by clearing the other short flats...ahahahha...troll and leech arnd

finished all the crap le..then whole class go toa payoh central there..traumatise those poor AMK students who were doing flag day...later miss lim so nice...treat the class kfc...not realli treat la....is actualli throw $50 to us and let us settle...lol...so went to bought 2 fiesta thingies to share wif the class. laer found out got no drink so me went 2 7-11 to buy 4 super big gulps. the cashier was kinda 0_0 lucki the kfc ppl dint chase me away...hahahaha..

to junhao : i may have kena tt thingy but ur still the bigger loser at the end...( ^ _ ^ )

later went to play pool....table so big ...veri hard to play...hahaha...sorri la...imma noob

play for a while b4 going lan...my gosh the lan shop there sux to the core....for many many many reasons...im gonna swear off goin tt lan shop le...

went home got nothing to do so tweaked me blogskin...the result?

<-----------see here----------->

haha...nice pic from 4chan...if onli i could find the other one which i saw qte long time ago.......

later tt night..tot me sis to play o2jam...muahahha...got more ppl to jam wif le...

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today went to IMM...saw fann wong there...and she is so pale and scrawny....haha....okok...fair and petite?? promote a new animated movie i think...dun realli care abt it all though....haahaa

and i dun realli like local media...lol

ja ne~~

2006-01-18T02:39:00.000-08:00

The Completely Pointless Personality Quiz

i have a personality of a cardboard box...eeerrr...thanks sia...lol...

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	High
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	High
Pride:	Medium

Discover Your Sins - Click Here

sloth i understand... but lust?? lol...maybe not tt kind of lust ba...hahahahaha

Your Final Quiz Score: 32 right out of a possible 60
The Monkey's Final Score: 16 right out of 60

Well done, you have sent the monkey to his defeat. Your score is unquestionably higher, and thus the lowly monkey has been proven once again to be humankind's intellectual inferior. Good work, however your score does leave room for improvement. We should like to see the human dominate even more completely!

You scored in the 75th percentile.
(75% of quiz takers scored worse than you)

Geography
Your score: 9 Monkey's score: 5 -- Quite a sufficient job.

History
Your score: 11 Monkey's score: 5 -- Not too bad.

Science/Technology
Your score: 7 Monkey's score: 2 -- Well done.

Random Trivia
Your score: 5 Monkey's score: 4 -- Regrettably close scores.

I beat the monkey by 16 points.
Famous Monkey Trivia Quiz

wow!! im smarter than a monkey!!!! have to thank 11 years of education 4 tt...haahaa....any takers for this quiz??

now for me anime rants...ahahaha...bleach is going thru a filler arc...finally can see some episode where i dunno wats gonna happen next...( ^ ____ ^ )...onli one shinigami came to the real world...lol...willl the yachiru be joining him??saw a similar looking gal in the EP..which reminds me...the ep IS INANE...dunn wth is going on...haha...3 stuff animals dancing...oh yeah??

cant wait to know more abt this filler arc..

and finally fate/stay night is out!!!! used to save their fanart w/o realising wat it is...hahaah...jus watched the first 2 epi...know tt its gonna a helluva series...adapted from one of the best-selling games in jpan u noe??? muahahhaah...i have something to chase after shuffle liao~~~~
( ^ ____ ^ ) V MOAR MOAR MOAR!!!!

ja ne~~

2006-01-15T08:02:00.000-08:00

wat that has happened had made me more sure that nyjc chem dpt is realli CMI.
jus look at our mos recent notes. Ionic equilibria..a freaking 31 pages long. wat made me pissed is tt they could have broken it up into more manageable sections. they already classified it into nice sections le but stil give tt bloody POS...wth sia!!

next is the recorded lecture. Ok its sumting new and i shldnt expect it to be perfect. But it has many fatal flaws within it. Firstly is the sound quality or rather the lack of it. With tt audio quality, its a wonder that so mani ppl are able to sit thru the whole thing. (ok...maybe im a audiophile and have high standards). the program they use also a bit substandard. for ppl wif slower connections...they have to wait veri long and its not smooth at all. it shld have a function for the student population to dl the file in its entirety(simply put...do not make it as a streaming media)

hai~~~~~~guess tts all for me rant for now...

also stil a bit pissed...abt internet explorer...u cant save a pdf u accessed on IE...dubba yew tee eff...tried later wif firefox and it manages to do jus tt. lesson of the day? use firefox... IE is junk..

now using a laptop..bah...i jus miss using my desktop. jus tt becos of arranging furniture...my internet cable not long enuff le...waaaaa...tt means no new anime until me mum gets a 4m long cable...stil got Air and nanoha A's to watch...hopefully i can survive....

ja ne~~

2006-01-14T07:55:00.000-08:00

You scored as agnosticism. You are an agnostic. Though it is generally taken that agnostics neither believe nor disbelieve in God, it is possible to be a theist or atheist in addition to an agnostic. Agnostics don't believe it is possible to prove the existence of God (nor lack thereof).

Agnosticism is a philosophy that God's existence cannot be proven. Some say it is possible to be agnostic and follow a religion; however, one cannot be a devout believer if he or she does not truly believe.

agnosticism

100%

Satanism

88%

Buddhism

83%

atheism

79%

Paganism

75%

Judaism

63%

Islam

63%

Christianity

46%

Hinduism

38%

Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
created with QuizFarm.com

wow...kinda knew i would kena agnosticism or atheism b4 i took the quiz...but im qte suited for satanism...hahaha.. 666 ftw?lol

too lazi to recall wat happen the previous few days so tt i can blog it down. Ha ha. i m slacker~~
lets jus ee wat comes into my mind yup??

well there's nothing...hahaha

another day spent rotten at my home...so nothing much to blog abt...lol...

oh yah...me got introduced to a new online game called 02jam...and its super fun!!(primary school vocab...oh yeah)

it resemble all those music games u see in arcade..got mani buttons and when the note reaches the line...u mus hit the correct button...a la ddr...drum...para...

the music there is so nice...fly magpie is addictive...xmas memories is also veri soothing to hear...puberty is also veri nice...aha.al..now me have to wonder where to find the full mp3s for the songs...either korean or jap songs...gonna be harder than finding para songs...since the game jus came out...wish me luck yup???

ja ne~~

2006-01-11T06:14:00.000-08:00

day of terror!!lol

started the day by being kena shooted by tfk...lol...so interesting? first 2 periods was FM tutorials...super sianded...cant wait to get out of this...aud went to c maths class le..so me kinda alone..note to self: mus psycho more ppl drp f maths...lol...

after tt sti have tfk lect...got a sore neck after the lesson. Hhaaa. let yall guess wat happened. something bad abt today.. No one brought cards!! OMGWTHLOLBBQ

so lunch was spent without big 2 or bridge...rare for us..lol..mrs so dint come today...got another chem teacher who came in as a sub...i think hes balding...lol...lecture from farcanno see.... receding hairline liao...ahaha...hope he doesnt take this personally...lol....

after tt go big LT for some lame stuff..returned mslo...dun ask the proper name k? cos i also dunno...lol..need to copmplete or not ar??l

later went to zap the physics answers realised something really cool!! ( - _ ^ )

met up wif me OG12 at the library..haha..their aho-sensei gave em realli funni instruction regarding partial fractions. thxfully i was there to save the day wif my AO-grade c maths..tot them how to do partial fractions leh...dun pray pray...lol

loitered arnd wasting my time during the bazzar... i have this slightest memory tt i was supposed to look for a cca...

CCA that i wanna sign up for but forgotten are...

1) petanque (to irritate alvin)
2) KRT ( to irritate almost all of em)
3) Guzheng ( jus to have a wth-r-u-thinking rxn from ppl)

dun think got any else more...maybe shld jus set up a arcade-games club..lol..then can play all those games all for free...haaahaaa

theres a performance in the big LT again..by order of appearance... CO...guitar ensemble...guzheng...dance...piano ensemble...

saw many familiar faces in the performing crowd...finally saw wenjun dance...so cool sia~~haha..bai bai nvr polish guitar one...and wu gui damn slack lor..onli play the second song..be a hua ping in the first one...lol...

ahha...hopefully the J1s can join a cca which they enjoy...jus pray tt they wun be like me...cca-less...lol...this few days like keep on getting suan by ppl cos i got no cca..lol

ja ne~~

2006-01-10T06:28:00.000-08:00

yesterday
i had a dream of you
i gave your love away
but i belong to you

happi hari raya haji to all muslim peeps out there and a enjoyable slacking day for all erm...slackers??

haha...exams at the end of the year...so mus enjoy all slacking time now...tts what i feel...hehehe

jus had an og outing today...haha...a perfect day ruined by the weather...cock-up weather made us change plans.Met in pasir ris. Interesting fact. No matter wat the occasion, in any form of gathering, there will always be latecomers. Today i be a smarter fella and dint be punctual...oh yeah~~

turns out the weather was not going to be compliant...rain rain rain...wet grnd...go beach there do wat shit sia...lol...so in the end white sands eat lunch...OMG...all the way to there for jus lunch ( ^ _ ^")

lunched liao then go PS...haha...they are all gonna be so sianed by that place next time...all go play arcade...heeee so fun~~but i everytime go arcade will overspend one...haha...nxt time mus control...but onli in arcade i can go super high...haha~~

after tt went to pool...(not swimming pool la...u cold ppl)...our Og got qte a few pro ppl sia...haha...me better hide away in shame...sumting realli weird happen...at the pool place...it involves a HP, a blur gal and a "wth-is goin-on??" man

haha...hopefully i wont get murdered for saying tt. This OG is kinda nuts...lol...funny ppl...

without knowing...time passed by so fast...dinner time le..went LJS to eat..sumting screwed up there...dun have the normal fish and chix..so blooody sian...in the end got to make do wif some weird tasting piece fish...thankfully, tomato sauce is ur best fren in times like this...aha...eat liao then stay there tok more crap...

haa~~they are stil not high enuff...so went off liao ba...lol...jus as well...need to be home early..heee~~

guess tts all...wonder wat skool tmr will be like...better look at my timetable first...got cca bazaar for the J1s...maybe i shld be extra and go sign up for a few...let ppl waste their sms...muahaahaa...but tt is onli if we are let off early...lol....which think so cos the J2s are gonna be involved rite??lol...yay!!

wait for me OG12...im joining yall later!!!hahahah

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sometimes i wonder wat a blog is used for. we cant realli pour out our heart's deepest secret here cos it has an audience that knows the real u. binded by self-censorship, is the end result truly wat we wished for? so many dark feelings that cannot be said for fear of putting someone off. in the end all we get is a superficial product adorned fabricated stories and well-guised half-truths. is this the end for this blog? or maybe i shld jus have a public blog and another private one. one to realli act as my journal/diary/reflection space.

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the self that i show to others is not the true self that i realli am. In the world filled wif hypocrisy...one cant help to be dragged into its revelry..wat u to is correct is mostly wrong and wat u tot is impossible may actualli be tru...
me and my $0.02

its nt supposed to happen..this decision had took place qte a while back..dun look back..never falter in ur steps..

guess im a jealous person after all...

ja ne~~

2006-01-08T08:00:00.000-08:00

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's" Inferno Hell Test

6th level-The City of Dis

As you approach Satan's wretched city where you behold a wide plain surrounded by iron walls. Before you are fields full of distress and torment terrible. Burning tombs are littered about the landscape. Inside these flaming sepulchers suffer the heretics, failing to believe in God and the afterlife, who make themselves audible by doleful sighs. You will join the wicked that lie here, and will be offered no respite. The three infernal Furies stained with blood, with limbs of women and hair of serpents, dwell in this circle of Hell.

kool stuff!!!realised tt im such a sinful person. In te Xian context...im prolly a uber eveil person...heeeheee

ja ne~~

2006-01-07T05:53:00.000-08:00

After a long week of blogging hiatus, im finally back! ahaha...s9d blogging scene getting more and more dead without me. LOL.

This whole week passsed by in a blur. Orientation came by and blew me away. Such a engaging week for all of us. Dun think i can forget waking up so early to go skool. (poor councillors got to reach skool at 0600)

Not too sure abt the chain of events le...ahaha...lemme try to recall...on tuesday ...oh crap forgot le...ahahaha....first day of orientation so we play icebreaker games...then lead them for some land games...haha...they a bit hard to high on tt day...

wednesday is water games?? tt day i kena game ic so cannot join up wif em...so sad...onli noe i stoned at the same spot for 4 hours?? missed the dance also...dunno whether shld i b happi or sad cos me dancing is CMI...LOL...come to think of it...me dint realli interact wif em on tt day...haha...ooops...

thursday = sentosa day...guess wat im game ic again!! whoopie!! on this day need to reach skool on 0620. But i late!!haha...learnt on tt day the timing of the first bus...lol...went sentosa to set up beach game...also saw mjc there...saw em doing vega tribal cheer...am bit nostalgic...too bad i dun keep in contact wif vega 4 animore...sobs...last time so high one sia...lol...

*Vega! Are u readi??

involved in a station tt makes them throw sandbags at a target board...some of em so violent...throw and then make the bags burst...bloody hell!! need to remake so many bombs.Think i too slack also...selective myopia plus arithmetically challenged...von also got first aid duty at sentosa...buy some mysterious forces she was stationed near me. welcomed her there wif a can of streamers...haha...my aiming so zhun...snow spray also excellent aiming one...
later got councillor help out at my station...von's fren...shanonny??tts wat i think she call her..lol..the council closed down the station after ours...then can slack wor...lol...jkjk...lunch tt time go eat delifrance...saw me og coming to the beach then so i chiong out to see them...haha..
haha..see them at my station they so high...i so veri happy...
after tt on the bus out to harborfront i got traumatised by me Og...kena bullied sia...all aim me...ahahah...cannot shooot back...
after tt we go harborfront station for soem sort of a gathering...lol...eat and other stuff...too bad nr go out play even more...

fri is the last day le...satart of wif a uber long session of dance...until close to luch time leh....wth lor...then they impromptu teach summer sunshine...haha...a cmi dance session...but i think i finally got the waltz part in the end...but too bad cannot use le...

later lunch tt time i kept getting chased away by my OG...haha...noe wat they planning liao...give myself no surprise leh...lol..later tt day played air games...continued to high for the whole day...cheering competition and dancing king plus queen...woooot!!

while waiting for dinner lincoln jeremy and yvonne played "to zanarkand" on tt piano on 4th floor...right song for the mood ba...hard to say lor...ahha...later thay all star to play piano..so zai la...me mus hide in shame le...me twinkle twinkle also cannnot play...wait for food until sian so in the end go disco nite high!! go crash other og and dance inside thier circle...went to the front..party like siao!!

wished this would all nvr end...but cannot la...say this liao later me 9d peeps will kill me...haha..

1 week together...OG12 FOREVER!!!

ja ne~~

2006-01-01T07:24:00.000-08:00

Happy 2006 to yall!!

this year's countdown was sweeet...went to chijmes this year for it...welcome the new year wif my ears blasted with music...jumping up and down wif some band playing live in front of us. Managed to squeeze to the front of the stage where its the most high and rowdiest. HAha...those freakin angmoh jus kept pushing around like nobody's business. all the shoving was a bit violent so haah..if ya cant take it..u better stay a bit further a bit..after tt continue jump there for a little while more. leg tired liao so went off there le..

later went esplanade to rot cos got no more trains and buses..haah..cant get to orchard to go sightseeing le...too lazy to walk also cos jus now too high le....jump until like overstretch my leg muscle liao...ahaha...stil ...it was da best!!

In short,

Countdown was a blast!!! the freaking best ever!!! LOL...

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in a blink of an eye, 2005 came to an end. the adage "time passes when u r having fun" never seemed to be more true in 2005

It is also be a year of missed opportunities. They say tt it onli comes round once. Now tt im sure its gone, let it be tt way

New year, fresh start. Not sure wat kind of year 2006 will be other than it will be veri stressful cos of a level...also better start to pray for my a lvl chinese result..haha..dun think it will help much but hate least im doing something...lol...

"When u wish for something u want very much, God is the one who ignores u" frm The Island

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Wishes for 2006

1. Be happy!!

2. Do all tutorials

3. Qualify for uni

4. Learn to style my hair..lol

5. Be more direct with ppl

6. See more political opposition in Singapore

7. Sg economy become stronger

8. More debates and dicusiions for thorny issues

9. No more war... ( Save the world, plant a Bush back in Texas)

10. Be less of a b***o

11. More money!!

12. Better luck when playing any games tt involves it.

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haha...wishlist cum resolution...lol...wonder how many of it will be true for this year

ps: cant wait for my bday to come this year...lol... ( ^ _ - )

ja ne~~

2006-01-01T07:09:00.000-08:00

WAAAAAA!!!! MY COMP CRASHED!!!! MY PICTURES!! MY MP3S !! AND MY ANIME!!!

gone....all gone....imma gonnna hide in a corner for a while...

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bleh no use being pissed over it...need to remind my self to bak up stuff nxt time...typing wif no punctuation cos i decided no to give a shit abt it for this one post...

hai~~salvaging stuff again le...stil got some songs on a cd...but the newer ones are goneded... no more eurobeat liao...no more moonlight shadow... i need to use baidu also le...lol

im not gonna be depressed abt it anymore...haha...take it as a evil twist of fate ba

ja ne~~

2005-12-29T02:34:00.000-08:00

Its official...im an OGL!!ahhaha

today went for the refresher course. Haha...woke up late and thus went there late too. i slept onli at 530am lor. Seduced by the comp. ( ^ _ ^ ). Hai~~ me orientation dance is a bit CMI. but nvm.Ha ha. The other ogls like got no ap one. Tts good. Hopefully can have synergy as a whole OG...painted og12 banner today. looks ok lor. Not the nicest but also not the ugliest. Hahaha

think i use my comp too much le...cos the fan at my comp table cannot work le. Got a funny burnt smell. Maybe i fried the circuits le? Now so hot.

Too lazy to blog abt the past few days. Nothing much happen anyways. Only tt i getting broke le.

"I love deadlines. I like the whooshing sound they make as they fly by" Douglas Adams

=)

ja ne~~

2005-12-26T11:58:00.000-08:00

4 am in the morning
Carried away by a moonlight shadow

Hey its 4am now and im blogging! Another thing tt coincide wif the moonlight shadow song. Strange huh? I had been having sleepless nites the past few days. By choice of cause. I will nvr torture myself. Haha. ZZZing at 4 to 5 am these few days. Slp past noon one. LOL. My sense of timing is all screwed up? Faulty body clock. Crap think im getting delusional. Sleep deprivation? If i send or say anithing spaz mus forgive me yup? LOL. getting so high frm not having enuff slp...

watched "the promise" today/yesterday. was it a good movie? i think not so ba. the intro was a scene tt induce ppl to say "wtf?" storyline a bit skewed. Some cliches scattered arnd the whole movie. But at least cecilia cheung is this movie. Makes it more watchable. me recalls tt scene...( ^ _ ^ )

u noe b4 the movie they will normally show a pirated movie dvd contents.U noe the usual grainy pics, over pixellated figures and black-white pics. Tts realli true to some extent but a person wif high taste such as me will never be so lowdown to resort to buying pirated dvds.
Firstly is their obvious lack of quality. Those ppl have shaky hands. Invest in a tripod for chrais sake. Secondly...the internet is my good fren...nuff said...

aniways i learnt something in the worst way. some how i cannot access my blog thru firefox!! Came out wif some error. Think it mus gotta do wif the script. Im gonna change my blogskin soon!! Try something diff this time.. ( ^ o ^ )

now...jus hope tt blogskins.com got wat i wan....lol...

ja ne~~

2005-12-25T07:41:00.000-08:00

xmas is stil on...whoopie??

Made qte a few changes to me comp today. Not a overhaul but definitely qte a sweeping change.

Firstly, i cleared all the junk in my startup and my desktop.Now its a bit barebones, with onli 2 items on my desktop. Not by choice though. I stil haven't figure out how to get rid of
the recycle bin. This was partly inspired by a visit to 4chan. I got hit aby a realisation tt i dun wan my preetty desktop pic to be marred by such low-class icons. So there we go.LOL

Also sorted out my treasure trove pics. Lurking in 4chan and animesuki can realli give u a lot of pics. 600 plus le. Little by the standards of those freaks but hey im starting out ok?

Hmmm...think i qte happi wif the changes i made. Finally not so cluttered le.

i think im stil addicted to anime...lol...tts sumting tt me gotta change

ja ne~~

2005-12-24T09:49:00.000-08:00

a merry merry xmas and a happy yuletide!! watever tt means...lol

yep. finally the day is here. The most commercialised holiday in the whole calendar.

ITS XMAS!!

haha...me not gonna be a spoilsport and talk abt religion now. Its a time of giving a sharing so i decided to post all me xmas pic i have!!

not forgetting anime-style gothic gals for being so hot!
*not related to xmas though

for some unknown reason im becoming high...so holiday mood?

decided to post almost all my 4chan&animesuki pics here in the future.
being a leecher is so damn cool!!

ahha...
and b4 i forgot

lyrics of happy people performed by skoop on somebody

Yeah, happy peoples in the house

Happy people (well)
Happy people
Happy people
Happy people

Here we go!

Everybody stand up
Minna tatakatenda
Naishin wa fuanda demo keep your head right up
To the sky

Donna toki mo
Doko de ite mo
Just call me anytime
Kuchikara ni naru yo

*Happy peoples in the house
TAFU (Tough) na egao de
Happy peoples in the house
Ikite yuku no sa

Happy people

Kimisu(?) na my brother
Kimi dashikuteinda
Naidate my sister
Mato(?) waraetainda
Let's go

Shintoki(?) wo shite
Yori michi shite
It's all in your mind
Kaze ni fukarete

Happy peoples in the house
RAFU (Laugh) na yasasate
Happy peoples in the house
Chodoeikara(?)
Happy peoples in the house
Naite waratte
Happy peoples in the house
Motto to wo koe

(Anyday, anyplace, anytime you need me)
(Just call me, call me, call me out loud, my brother)
Anyday, anyplace, anytime you need me (Call me, call me anytime you need me, yeah)
Call me, call me, call me, man, out loud(When you need me, I'll be there for you)
Anyday, anyplace, anytime you need me Just call me, call me (Anytime)
Kuchikara ni naru yo

*Repeat

Happy peoples in the house
Hitori ja naite
Happy peoples in the house
Kimi ga waratta
Yeah

Happy people
Happy people (Well, everything is all right)
Happy people
Happy people

for its translation though i need some more time...ahha...hard to find for the full version...

guess tt's all for you today

ja ne~~

2005-12-21T08:18:00.000-08:00

It was a day filled with ups and downs.

Went out to look those skateline skates...but me dint managed to find tt place.Gaaaah!! So pissed. Made meself walk in the sun for nothing. Great!!(sarcasm is intended)

Later a bit pissed le, so decided to go suntec walk walk. Haha, one of the rare times in which i was there alone. But nvm, had a hell of a time. Firstly i had an early dinner at Carl's Jr. The freaking burger was like at least twice the volume of a normal burger frm Mc and BK.Also the side dish was something that dropped down from heaven(but i forgot the name le). Its fries plus cheese and beef. Taste like the stuff u have on coney hot dogs(A&W..u all forget le??). The combination was supreme!!!The flavor of the meat sauce intertwined with french fries. Pure bliss. Qte a lot of quantity also. The box of tt thing was slightly larger than the box used to hold big Macs.Also the drinks there are free refill. And the napkins can take until u shuang one. LOL. But of cos the price is also dbl la. Jus like the burgers. =)

Later went to buy some shuffle figurines. Its those tt the put it inside the box and u get them randomly yup? Im super glad cos i got me 2 most fave shuffle characters!! Asa-chan and Kaede!! Actualli i wldnt getting the rest cos they are also so kawaii. Maybe except for Sia cos she realli looks funny.

Later passed by the arcade and saw this uber kewl game.

HOUSE OF THE DEAD 4 !!

They upgraded the weapons this time again. The original and the second one uses pistols , HoTD 3 use shotguns, and tis one use an uzi!! Haha. Also reload in a funny way. U have to shake the gun. *shrugs* Also sometimes the zombies will grab u and u have to "shake" them off (pun intended). Its qte a scene if u knew abt HoTD series. The number of zombies have increased to resident evil movie level. Hell! To a gaming noob he may even think its RE. But tt game is 2 dollars. Dam exp. I rather go do me stuff in eastpoint ( ^ _ - )

went home full and bloated from the free refill of drinks.

Im damn shuang today. Later got anime see. Muahaha. My three obsessions...food, gaming and anime!!! ( ^ _____ ^ )

ja ne~~

2005-12-19T20:42:00.000-08:00

A new week. A refreshing time to mug?Hell no!hahaha

there is simply no motivation for me to study lor. Haha. We are all caught up in this web of misery and misfortune, burdened by our own hopes and dreams. I never knew it would be this tough. Am I on a verge of a breakdown? hai~~

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As if the week doesn't seem like getting worse, it did. RIP Sousei-seiki. You did well. But i guess it came a litle bit short. Suigintou was better in tt fight. May you and your rosa mystica lay down in peace. They will never forget you.

ja ne~~

2005-12-17T07:39:00.000-08:00

wooot~~went out again!

This time went out to look out for rollerblades. Following the lead the qh gave me sometime ago, me went to carrefour to check it out. Meh,me dun like the skates there. Look a bit off one and then somemore im not too sure the quality of those brands. I dun trust the sales promoters there yup? Think they will psycho me to buy the stuff there.

So in the end went out of suntec empty-handed. Jus as well. Cos we went to eastpoint to eat and go arcade. Saw NY councillors at the entrance of Eastpoint. Good positioning but when it comes to ppl like me, even hard-sell tactics dun work. So i dint donate. I hope they dun recognise me. teeheee.

went to arcade and spend prolly twenty dollars there. The first time i spent so much there lor. Let u all guess what i spend the bulk of the money on.

*Hint : my arms are qte sore now...

first person other than bird(cos hes wif me?) to guess it correct will get a mystery prize.

Also signed up to be a VIP member for tt tapz card thing. Can save arnd 10cents/game. Im not trying to be cheapskate but i mus make my money stretch yup?

Today was so fun. Dint know arcade can be so addictive. Im hooked! Cant wait to go there again.

i also made a shocking dicovery from my sis today.for

THERE"S NO MORE MCSPICY DOUBLE!!

For now, there's onli McSpicy. Crap. One of the nicer burgers from Mac got screwed over.

Holey hell...

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Virtual. Something that doesnt exist in reality. Something that appears onli in our private minds and hearts. Some problems are tt way. U think tt it exist but the truth is, it doesn't. It is all but a grand illusion made by ur mind which is searching for an answer. Deluded, lost, misplaced caution. All tt will lead u to the wrong path. Guess that is the way the cookie crumbles.

Searching for the truth is always difficult. Especially in this dishonest and hypocritical world. What u see, hear, feel, smell, taste. They all could be manipulated by other ppl by some extent.

Ask yourself. What is the truth? Who determines that? Does it even exist? The ultimate truth?
is there even such a thing?

No one can ever give a clear cut answer to that question to tt. Becos the answer lies within themselves. We can onli search it out within ourselves. Even though we may screw up and acknowledge the foul crap as the truth. It is art of the process. If everything goes smoothly in life, there's not much meaning to it right?

kiazutsuku yori mo tsurai no wa
ashita wo akiramete jibun ni uso tsukisuzukeru koto
(* The only thing more painful than getting hurt
is giving up on tomorrow and continuing to lie to yourself)
Promise by TiA- yakitate japan OP

ja ne~~

2005-12-16T03:17:00.000-08:00

It's been quite a while since i updated my blog le! LOL. Kept going out for the past few days, now i just realised tt i need more money! Haha.

Monday and Tuesday

Grouping these two days together because its the OGL workshop thingy.Dun realli remember the details. Let's see what we do during then. For the first time in my life i played the orientation games until sian. 4 days worth of games cramped into 2 days. Sweeet. Also went to be guinea pigs to test out the games for them.Haha. Also learnt the dances for the orientation. I am so screwed if u all call me to teach the J1s next year the mass dance. My mantra for mass dance is totally different from other ppl. Oh No!!!

Tuesday lunch break tt time went wif qh to find yvon for me tsubasa chronicle discs. yvon is infatuated wif tt character there.cant blame her too, cos im also mad over some anime characters myself. LOL. Asa-senpai FTW! Suigintou Rawks! Then yvon asked qh chem questions. Kao, never ask me. My chem better than u(yvon) k?

On another note, the food there was awful. Meh i was so close to going out and buying lunch. The rice was so unplatable. Im kinda glad this whole thing is over.Ha Ha.

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Wednesday

Planned to go blading wif bird and zy. However we have decided tt we are going to buy rollerblades cos its gonna be more cost-efficient for us. So in the end dint skate at all. Detour to watch King Kong!! Went to Lido to watch cause cineleisure tickets sold out. What u expect lor, opening day for King Kong. Nevertheless its still a damn nice show, worth the amount of money spent there. Best part is when Kong one-on-one the T-rex in skull island and the brontosaurus chase scene.Also Kong has a veri weird sense of humor.U will noe it when u see the movie.So watch it k!!

Later loitered around orchard even though we know most of the shops are closed. Haha. Went back home qte late.

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Thursday

Went for a shopping trip today wif the same ppl. Ha Ha. Only managed to buy a new bag though and i dint got a chance to bargain. LOL. Later went to eat Sakae Sushi lunch buffet. I managed to eat 20 plates! haha. but later got two serving of fruits and one more ice cream. Managed to keep it in my stomach until i left sakae.LOL.

Later went to play lan and i won a dota 2v1! (im the 1 dummy...) Im improving!!LOL
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Friday

Rotted at home.sleep and watch anime and update blog.Guess tt abt all happen today.
Someone also sent me a pseudo chain-mail. Let me mull over whether shld i break the chain or not.
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dunno whats happening but somehow my life feels kinda empty now. Not the spiritual and religious tt kind ok? Jus sometimes there is a voice deep within me tt screams for attention and seeks for care. Strange? I think so too. So far my hols have passed by aimlessly, i am not even sure wat is gonna happen. crap. too much disturbances le. sad...

Ride on Shooting Star
kimi o sagashite kindanshôjô chû
uso o tsuita

*Ride on shooting star
Searching for you, and in withdrawal syndrome
I told a lie

"ride on shooting star" from The Pillows

2005-12-11T05:52:00.000-08:00

joo seng road ppl rejoice!! lai lai kopitiam's renovation is finally complete!!!wooot!! finally got a few new stalls.no more the same and boring food for at least a week i think.Haha. And i decided on one thing. There will be no more unnecessary "..." in this blog anymore. I had decided this will screw up my punctuation next time so tt's the way it shall be. Haha.

Went down to eat the oyster omelette just now. The taste was ok but i have one gripe. The pan the stall use for the hao jian is the same for carrot cake and char kway teoww!!! If u do not know why I am reacting like this let me educate you. When cooking the above two named dishes,dark soy sauce will be used. It is hard to remove and thus when u cook anything after those dishes. It will turn black, making it look unappetising. I dun think they will change but i am making this suggestion. Change the freaking pan!!

Yesterday went to sandar's church korean japanese exchange(KJE).Was pretty interesting.Day started out with a quiz on japanese and korean food culture.Haha,all because of me there our group got a perfect 10 out of 10.Whooosh,I am so great!Then we had a sushi making competition.My aim there was not to make a sushi to present to the judges,but rather one which i can be used to fill my empty stomach.LOL.It worked pretty well.Somehow we manage to pull it off,cos we managed to get third (out of 12...lol) yay we are so good. Then we had wat i call a "psycho session".Dun think i can say out wat i directly feel cos i gonna piss a lot of naruto fans and xians.If ya dun get the link then nvm. It's better that way.

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hmmm...i suddenly recall a scene from the last few episodes of rahxephon

it happens when megumi was saying goodbye to ayato cos a big fight was gonna happen and ayato was gonna "save the world" with rahxephon(typical anime cliche..).Some character background. Megumi has a thing for Ayato. And Ayato's love in the anime is Haruka,who is also megumi's sister.Explaining all tt has happened in the anime would be too tiring so lemme jus say the scene yup?

When Megumi was saying her goodbyes to Ayato, she admitted that she had a crush on Ayato straight to his face.But she said that such a thing was over and wished the best for him and her sister , Haruka.But the truth is that she had never let him go. Out of his sight, she broke down and bawled, sobbing uncontrollably. At this point her father came to console her "Baka, dun act like an adult when you are not even one."

You all may be wondering why i am talking about all these out of the blue but this is something i want to say to yall. Now is a very tough time for all of us but we do not have to carry this burden alone. We are all in this together.We face the same fears,the same worries.Heck, even maybe the same joys. So wat im saying to you all is that u are not alone. You have us. Even in the unending darkness there will always be light. If u let us be it, we will be the light that shines just for you.

Many a times, we think that we can handle things in our way. We often believe that our actions are right and if things turn out to be awry we think "that's the way things are."

But is it really that way? How do you know whether your thinking is correct in the first place or not? Your worries,your fears they may very well be all self-created.How can you be upset over nothing?You may have been setting up an invisible wall between u and the ppl close to you. Things break down because of this. Friendship, trust and care. They are only as strong as we want them to be.Nothing less and nothing more. The moment you decided to give up on something, it will all be over. So i have a new resolution. I will never give up...cos i do not want to let ppl down.especially not myself...

And i hope all of you would be the same. Be strong. You can becos you are.

kimi dake wo dakishimetakute nakushita yume kimi wa
"akiramenaide" to itta
*My lost dreams of wanting to hold you by my side,
For them, you said, "Don't give up!"

ja ne~~

2005-12-09T06:54:00.000-08:00

me has lost some enthusiasm for blogging le...ahaha...not too sure why...think the most fun part one trying to edit the raw blogskins into something a bit more personal...after a while...i dunno...it gets a bit dull...maybe i shld try to make my own blogskin le...not from scratch la...maybe jus copy the layout but put me own images...im beginnning to drool due to a suigintou blogskin...mmm...so nice...

haha...me realised tt i super lagged regarding hols HW...today found out got someone same as me...so can relak a bit??ahaha...me canno believe im stil procrastinating now...i m so qiang!!!

past few days so many unmentionables happen...lol...naisho~~

baaa...nothing else to say le...

skinku is the best!!suigintou is not too shabby too...lol

ja ne~~